对不起，我爱你

Authority = Responsibility

Frankly speaking, until today, I just fully understood that authority and the responsibility is equal.
The higher the authority you hold, the heavier the responsibility you have.
Fair enough!

This is the first time I am putting myself at this level with higher authority to do most of the tasks that are yet to be accomplished due to the absent of my direct superior. It's really not an easy job and I have to admit that I am abit kalam-kabut right now. The words of advice from my superior is still whispering in my mind... She says,
"In most of the company, the hardest task is always managing people. It involves a lot of knowledge, skills and experiences..."

I think, EQ comes in as the first priority. Well, i think it is the time for me to experience it and to discover my own style and way and to deliver the quality works. Now, every minutes every seconds is so important to me. So, jiayou ba Angeline! Stop letting the troubles to trouble you, but to turn every complicated tasks to a more simple and clearer task and direction. And only then, you are able to handle everything.

Believing that you can do that, and you will always be.

PS: My dear colleagues, it's all about teamwork. Please do reminding me whenever I am frustrated or restless. Your support is invaluable to me. Let's do the WILD and WOW for our upcoming project!

All the best and good luck!!

爱与被爱

若有人毫无保留地爱着你，是幸福的；
但如果一辈子里你也能够深爱过一个人，也应该很幸福；
即使皆不成果，也总比没爱过来的务实。

爱与被爱，让每个人都有权力去享受当刻的幸福，
它们都有着相同的浪漫碧蓝，却总带模糊。
因为永远难有的清晰感，
因为永远遥不可及的地平线，才发现天与地仍相隔很远，
才发现一路并肩而行的，未必是属你所有，或是你想拥有的。

 一条路要走多远，才能够稍微看见幸福的边界？
忽尔某一天，才明了。
原来从一开始被爱的，是不属于你的一生至爱；
而愿意承诺一生去爱你的，你其实从未真正爱上过。

一个是你的最爱却不爱你的人，
一个是你不爱却最爱你的人，
你会如何选择？

I fell in love like a fool

今天，就在今晚，
想念着你的我终于病倒了。
想起即将离我而去的你，如果没有一点的伤感与不舍，那我一定是骗你的。

想起我们之间横跨着一大片海洋，
还有几千公里的路程，那样的距离，
说真的，我无法接受。
但是，比起心的距离，我想我也即将崩溃。

原来，文字可以杀死人，
一个人的冷漠也可以把人推向地狱。
也许之前的幸福过于甜美，让人陶醉，
现在的冷漠才会让人生不如死。

坚持吗？我还可以坚持吗？
放弃？我还可以选择放弃吗？
忘记？还要多久？
今生如此爱着你，也许无法取代了，那又如何？

我已经爱你爱得如此疯狂，如此疯癫。
你也许笑我傻，
可是爱上你的那一刻我已注定那样傻傻的爱着你。

EQ

EQ, another wisdom of life that you could not neglect.

We meet different kind of people everyday with different emotions. Sometimes, a simple tiny action could really turns the outcome to be either positive or negative. Problems could be simplified if it has been handled with care and wisely.

Sadly, most of the time, our emotions are too easily affected by the people and the surrounding environment and you just can't help it. When troubles come, people tend to be frustrated. Furious has blinded your judgement and things get worst.

Relax, take it easy. Remember, there's always a better way to handle every trouble. Never let your emotions conquer your mind. Calm down and think twice before your speak. I am sure you will realise things have turned to be better, problems are no longer problems.

It works almost all the time!
But we are only human, I understand it.

EQ, one of the wisdom that I would love to discover recently. Frankly speaking, I am very emotional and it seems to be one of my weakest points. Anyhow, I'd love to take it as a challenge, to conquer my emotions and makes things to be better.

Again, all the best to me!

Oh yea, not to forget,
~~ M E R R Y   C H R I S T M A S ~~

Be yourself

You are you, and not somebody else.
You do not necessary turned yourself into someone else just to please someone.
This is a different story to adaption to the environment and changes.
Just be yourself. if you think you are right.
People could doubt you, but you are the only one to trust yourself.
You do not need to make people agree with what you do,
but they will agree with you sooner or later.
It is just about the matter of time.

Again, you own your own life.
Love it, live it, and do whatever you think it's right.
Just be yourself.

A summary of 2012

时光飞逝。。。
一转眼，2012年已接近尾声。
如果12月21日是世界末日，这26年的人生总算是无怨无悔。
虽然有再多的遗憾，再多的无奈，人生毕竟如此。

家人的爱无处不在，享受着越来越幸福的天伦之乐的同时，
满心欢喜地期待着一个小生命的加入 － 我未来的侄子。
朋友间的友谊，随着年龄的增长越见成熟。
朋友不在于多少，天长地久的友谊更显珍贵。
至于事业上，有了新的突破。希望未来会更好。
努力后的果实，很甜美。
爱情上，反反复复，辗转蜿蜒，
经略了多少风景，多少风雨，当然还有艳阳的时候。
领略了很多，也成长了许多。
不勉强，却执着地想把一份爱放在心里，直到没有了呼吸的那一刻。
不是放不下，只是真的爱了，无法取代了。
放心，我很好。

2012年真的过的很不容易。太多的精彩，太多的爱，太多的悲伤。
庆幸，我都一一度过。
失去的无法挽回，只有忘记过去，从新出发。
拥有的更加珍惜，拼了命都会好好的保护它，让他更璀璨，更美丽。

2012年临尾，想大声对妈妈说，
“Happy Birthday Mum! I love you forever!“

To everyone I know, everyone who is reading this,
"May you have a great year in 2013! Good luck and all the best wishes to you."

For me,
I am looking forward to a brand new me in a brand new year of 2013. Gambateh!

会有那么一天

《初恋那件小事》真的扣人心弦，
有一种能让人细细回味得魅力，慢慢地想起自己曾几何时的那段淡淡却很甜蜜的暗恋。

爱可以很单纯，很平凡，却让人感动，让人久久都无法忘怀。
爱让人变傻，变笨，却也让人变得更勇敢，更坚强。
为了爱，那份勇往直前，无怨无悔的勇气让人有了积极生活的力量。

小岚说，“虽然结局有点悲伤，可是因为爱上了学长，我变得更积极。所有能够让自己变漂亮变好的事情，我每一样都去做。学长就是我的 inspiration 。”

因为她的那番话，我重新有了勇气，有了积极生活下去的勇气。
小岚暗恋了亮学长那么多年，那份爱却依然完整的保护着。

而我，
虽然不知道会不会有那么一天，当他真的了解我的心意，当他真的听见了我心里得话。
虽然不知道，但是我还是会很积极地过每一天，让他成为我生活中的 inspiration 。
成为那个教会我努力生活，勇敢面对，积极追梦的那个人。
我想他是，他一直都是。

让那些无法开口的话，让那份真挚的爱，静静地等待，等待被发现的那一天吧！

A little thing called Love

Do you still remember the only special one in life that you couldn't forget no matter how long it has past?

Do you still remember the story about you and him, the day you met him and everything about him?

I do...

"A little thing called love" is a Thailand movie that talks about the first crush of the 2 young girl and boy. At the beginning of he story, the girl is an ugly duckling that falls in love with a handsome boy. In order to get closer to him, she starts to work really hard to change herself, from inner to outer. There's alot of time they missed the chance to tell each other how much they love and there's alot of misunderstanding that never been explained.

The girl in the movie has done alot of stupid things to prove her love. I think she's pretty much like me. Love can make people blind, i guess it's true. I never thought I could become a girl like this. Even though the process is sour and bitter sometimes, but it is the sweetest memories for all time. A friend told me once, "Time is never wait, chances are never replay. Once you have missed, you will forever missed." However, sometimes, destiny is far beyond you can defeat. No matter how hard I tried, how much effort has been putting in, he seems like doesn't understand what my heart is saying.

If you ask me, how long still for you to forget him?
I will say, I have tried my best, and yet, he has planted in my mind and it seems like never ever be removed. Maybe some years later, he is still in my heart, the memories are still there. No matter how long it has past, he is still my very precious love story...

I really miss you. Yes I do...

Never Give Up Angeline!

Courage, sometimes doesn't guarantee anything.

But thanks to the courage that comes from nowhere, at least I have done what I supposed to do so far.

Even though the result is not pleased, but I am fine with it.

Now, is time to think about it, how to do it all over again.

No matter how hard it is, I will do my best! Never give up!

Jiayou jiayou Angeline!!! You can do it! =)

Bird that is trapped in a cage... helpless

I am so frustrated when I know I can do more and perform better but in fact, I can't do that due to something or someone.The feeling is exactly like a bird being trapped in a cage.It knows how high it can fly but it has been trapped...

Do you ever know that I am actually a girl who is willing to take on any challenges. I won't care how hard the task gonna be and I won't care if it is normally done by a guy instead of a girl, I can do it! I am not a "puteri lilin" who is hide under the shelter of somebody else, and I am actually enjoying the process of doing something people might think impossible.

Mistake could be happened sometimes, but who never has mistake? I would love to learn from the mistakes and I do enjoying every learning and growing process.

I am not a superwoman and I don't want to be one. But I would love to challenge my limitation because the sense of satisfaction is the main factor that drives my spirit high and keeps the flames of my passion on.

I am a very positive and ambitious girl. So please, don't trapped my ability but let my strengths and talents to be seen.

A little bit more about the "stubborn" me

You may say I am stubborn, or too aggressive...
Yea, I agree with you.
But, most of the time when I insist on something, there's always a reason behind or a faith which I don't want to give up.

Since young, I have known that life is never easy.
A phrase says that, "Always choose the difficult one when you are still able to because you will know how easy it is when it comes in the later stage of your life. And always, this challenges that make your life completed."
There are most of the time in my 26 years life, experiencing the up and down, I always hold my faith to the last and never give up.
I am not a perfectionist, but when a task is given, I always want it to be ended up the best I can with no regrets.
It doesn't mean that i am always doing it on my own. In fact, I am always open for discussion because it is the way to learn and improve yourself.
But when I insist, I am actually thinking that there is another better way than the one you have. And I still wanna try it out.

Sometimes, people might say I am thinking too much.
Indeed, I am.
I always try to think whatever possibility it could happen even it is not gonna happen.
But I regard it as a way to make the best decision, to make a mature and the best decision out of all.

I am sorry if I am too harsh sometimes,
but I hope you could look at the things as whole, think of the main intention for doing this and identify which are the priorities...

Put in your courage and effort and just do it like there's no tomorrow.

Trust me, if you have done all this mentioned above,
even you do not win in the end, even the things doesn't turned out to be the way you expected,
but the satisfaction you have, the experience you learned and the most important thing is that you have no regrets with what you have done.
All of this are gonna be priceless and it's really feels good.

So guys, stop being a mummy's boy or daddy's girl.
It's time to grow up.
Live like a man, think like a man, and do like a man.
Cheers~

Better me

There's always some inspirations lately, for me...

I read an article today shared by someone on facebook and I found it very interesting...
"A lesson for a lady"

It says,
Everyone, every life is equal. The more you get, the more you pay. It's always fair enough. Being a lady, you must make sure you are financial free. You are able to live a normal life without depending on anyone. From the age of 15 to 25, you are studying hard while traveling hard to everywhere you wish to go. From 25 to 35, you are working hard to achieve something in your career, and then start saving and planning to have a family. Living the life happily and positively, and never complaint about the hard time.

Being romantic is a knowledge and it is a lifestyle. It should be always inside your heart regardless how old you are. Something or someone that you have lost, in another words, they never belongs to you. You shouldn't feel pity or upset but to let it go. Gaining or losing is normal and that actually completes your life path. Love yourself more, the sunshine is always awaiting you every morning.


Since when,
I have noted that a lady should never depend on the other half. You should be independent enough to handle your daily life. For me, I never want to be a superwoman. I need a family and I need friends. However, I neither wanna be too weak or too depending. I always seek a balance in between.

Love, for me, is a miracle. I hardly to fall in love with someone. But if  I do, I know it's gonna be really serious like no turning back. That's why I am worried. I have seen too many failure stories and I did experienced before too. The heart-breaking is never easy.

The recent lesson has really got a big impact to me. And I think I have reached to another level of life. Luckily I have walked through and I am recovering right now. I think I have put in too much effort, too much attention and love towards "him" and that probably doesn't work out. Things do not going well accordingly.

After struggling for so long, I think it's time to let go. Day after day, I really feel better right now. I know I will be good again real soon and until then, I probably have forgotten the sweetest time we had once spent together and all the memories we had. There's always something from heart I wanna say it, "Hey, I am going to forget you now. You might not believe I was once really fall in love with you, truly, deeply and madly. But now, I know I have to forget you. I might not be the best woman in the world. But I am once really wish to be the best woman for you. It's not gonna happen right now..."

Angeline, be tough, be cheerful like you always do. Everyday is gonna be a good day!
Cheers~ =)

Just meant for sharing

Sometimes, there's a food, a tiny action, a simple sentence or a music,
that could really brighten up your day
and keep your passion and energy that probably last for a whole day!

Sometimes, there's a problem that you couldn't solve all this while,
and suddenly, just suddenly, a solution comes to you without any prior notice.

Sometimes, there's a moment when you feel totally upset just like the whole world turns to grey,
and suddenly, every sadness seems like gone to nowhere and everything becomes wonderful again.

There are so many moments in life when you are so negative.
Hold on, stand still and keep your smiling face,
because every trouble got its solution.
It's normal to be negative.

I am so demotivated today and thanks to the lovely McD ice-cream,
i found my passion on works again.
When I was drowned into the old sad memories again,
and thanks God a beautiful song played in the radio just about the right time.

It's just something to share.
Sharing is caring. Cheers!

谢谢你

不知不觉，
只属于我的这个小小天地已经陪伴了我5年3个月4个星期有2天！

今天，在这个5342的这一天，
我为我的小天地换上新装，重新整理，从新出发！

过去的无数个日子里，
我和我的小天地分享了很多生活上的点点滴滴，
开心的，伤心的，兴奋的，绝望的，
还有人生道路上所有的跌跌撞撞，
领悟的人生道理，
遇见的人，事，物。

感恩，我还有你可以完整记录着我的一切，
成为我今生来过这个世界的最好证明。

未来，我会继续努力，
继续以我的角度看世界，
继续分享，继续学习。
我想，这个世界还是很美好的！

如果没有你

莫文蔚 － 如果没有你

hey 我真的好想你
现在窗外面 又开始下着雨
眼睛干干的 有想哭的心情
不知道你现在到底在哪里


hey 我真的好想你
太多的情绪 没适当的表情
最想说的话 我(应)该从何说起
你是否也像我一样在想你
如果没有你 没有过去
我不会有伤心
但是有如果 还是要爱你
如果没有你 我在哪里
又有甚么可惜
反正一切来不及 反正没有了自己

hey 我真的好想你
不知道你现在到底在哪里
你是否也像我一样在想你



怎么这样，一天又一天，就在拿着手机，看着你上线下线中度过。
为什么你却如此残忍地忘了我们的过去，不留一点痕迹。
每次拿起电话，却再也找不到联络你的理由。
现在的我该何去何从？

雨过就会天晴

轻快的音乐让我的心情都好了起来。
好久都没有打从心里地微笑了。
有种自信的感觉。

也许看见了午后的阳光，
那么的耀眼，温暖。。。
这是无数个下雨天后第一次感受到的阳光。

我不哭了。不怨了。
雨过就会天晴，放手后才能再次拥有。
虽然有些回忆，有些人这辈子都无法忘记。
但是，这些回忆，这些人都将完整的被收藏起来。
下次再想起时，都只会是甜蜜的。

说了好多次的再见。
这次，是真的想和你道别了。
我想，我们还是会见面的。
只是那份心情，将不会再一样。

Hey，你知道吗？
无论如何，我一定会考到潜水执照。
那是我的梦想，也是我对你最后的承诺。
到那时，我一定会在你面前开心地炫耀着我的成绩。
你一定要给我鼓励哦~
因为有了你的鼓励，我不会再害怕，我可以走得更远，
当你已不再在我身边时。 =)

那样的夜

不对的环境，不对的气氛，不对的人， 却在对的歌曲，对的时间下， 让回忆一点一滴渐渐清晰。 在这样的夜里，大雨清洗过的大地， 就让我再一次放肆地思念。 猛然发现，时间病没有冲淡心中的那份爱， 留下的只是无法释怀的委屈和遗憾。 流着泪的心，又再一次安慰自己， 这是最后一次为了他流泪， 最后一次打开那份对他的爱。 夜已深，请冷风吹干我的泪， 不哭了。 也不想了。

句点

我現在過得很好
不為什麼苦惱 日子像悠游的水草
也不怕回憶驚擾
過去多在意的 事過境遷了隨風飄

誰等在我的昨天 左右不了明天
愛過幾年 緣份總是少一天

一個人一輩子一次幸福難不難
每次想走得很遠 越渴望越無力向前
如果那麼愛你 最後還要失去你 為你傷心
可能 我會寧願不去冒險

一句話一輩子一次幸福難不難
聽過多少永遠 只懷念擁抱你的瞬間
如果遺失的夢 還能再找回來 我會勇敢
可是選擇離開 就別遺憾

一轉身一輩子一次幸福難不難
當時說了再見 再見面時空都已蛻變
如果遺失的夢 還能再找回來 我會勇敢
可是選擇離開 就別遺憾

放開一切才能握住你的手

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一首唱进心坎里的歌，正好印证了此时此刻的我。
我真的很爱你，可是如果那么爱你却还是要失去你，
那我宁可选择不再去冒险。
哭了，累了，所以选择放开你，让你自由，让你飞翔。

我很好，一直都会好好的。
就在今天，让我好好地，彻底地将我对你的爱埋葬起来。
以后，再也不要为了你哭。
再见了，我曾经那样深深爱着的你。。。

Relieve

There's a courage out from nowhere today urges me to find out the truth behind...
Finally, I texted him, preparing to say something what my heart wants to say...
I have waited his replies for the whole day and finally, the question is being answered.

It is a courage I have been looking for so long.
I told him everything except one thing...
The growing love...

I dunno if he is really got what I want to tell him.
And I am not sure if he is really understand what my words saying.
No matter how, it is a relieve for me, at least.

Hopefully, after today, there is a brand new me,
who is living her life with all the dreams and passion again.
Hopefully, after today, I can really put it down the love of mine to him,
and starting to look for or dream of my prince charming.

I hope, the miracle would finally happens on me one day.
I believe, it will~

放不下

几米说：

總有很多東西無法挽留，
比如走遠的時光，比如枯萎的情感；

總有很多東西難以割捨，
比如追逐的夢想，比如心中的喜愛；

在人生前進的道路上，
只要認真努力做自己，
相信會有另一扇門為你

而打開。

人生短短幾十年，
不要給自己留下了什麼遺憾，
想笑就笑。


我知道，是时候停止流泪，
可是，
无法忘记的回忆该如何忘记？
无法停止的想念该如何克制？
放不开，受了伤的心该如何复原？
不想再哭却该如何再次灿烂的笑？

I think that's called "L.O.V.E"

If you love something, let it go.
If it comes back to you, its yours forever.

给最爱的那个你

过了好久好久，没有你的消息。
每天每天，我都在等待着，等待着你的讯息。
你。。近来，好吗？
是否忙得忘了吃饭？
熬夜了吗？

没有我的日子，你别来无恙吧？
没有你的日子，我会慢慢习惯，就像当初慢慢习惯了你的存在一样。

我不会让你失望。
我会变成你最喜欢的，最开朗的我。
世界就算再荒凉，爱过了你就不会再孤单。

关系虽然不再一样，可是关心却不能说断就断。
只是，现在的关心只能默默地，不被你发现。

我最亲爱的那个你，请你一定要好好地，比以前更幸福地过每一天。
写在这里，也许你一辈子也不会懂，
可是这些已经是我的全部可以给你的幸福。
飞翔吧，飞向你的梦想，飞向你的幸福，我最爱的那个你。

永远的配角。我不要！

爱情就像奇迹般，让两个人同时爱上对方，
让两个陌生的心走在一起。
世界上有千千万万亿个人，而偏偏就这两个人相爱了。
我想，爱，真的就是上帝赐给世人的奇迹。

这样的奇迹，什么时候会发生在我身上？

重新看着《恶作剧之吻》，看着吴哈尼傻傻却不曾放弃地爱着白胜祖。
个中的酸甜苦辣，就好像现实生活中的我。
只是，吴哈尼比我幸运得多。
现实生活中，我和他更本不可能天天见面。
他的生活如此忙碌。
而我也不象吴哈尼一样那么勇敢地表白。
至少，白胜祖是知道吴哈尼真正的心意，也能够慢慢观察她对他的爱的证明，然后感动。
这些是我无法让他看见的，就算是我真的多么努力让他看见。

我和吴哈尼唯一相似的，只有默默忍受，流泪，委屈，绝望。
就算如此，为什么我还是不能停止想念他呢？
我真的很努力去过每一天的生活，很努力让每一天变的精彩。
可是那个影子，那些回忆却一遍遍地播放在我的脑海里，挥之不去。

吴哈尼是故事中的主角。
而我却永远只是个配角。
还要等多久，还有多久，我才能变成这爱情故事的主角？

直到现在，我才了解，
人，当伤心绝望到达了顶点，就算心里再多么的痛，
眼睛却无法再流出泪水。

神啊，请让风带我飞像属于我的幸福方向。
请让我忘记所有的痛苦悲伤，
让我的世界再次亮起来，再次五彩缤纷，再次热情飞舞。
Please grant my wish...

Another peaceful night...

It is another peaceful night tonight.
I can feel the cold wind blows gentlely over my hair.
I can hear the songs singing by the little insects from the field.
And I can see the moon is hiding behind the cloudy sky.

Everything is so peaceful.
With the song of Westlife - The Rose playing in my phone.
I am drowning into a fantasy...

My imagination starts to go wide and wild...

I am thinking of the big wide field at the highland of Scotland.
I am thinking of the beautiful and mysterious nessies lake.
I am thinking about the historical castle of Scotland.
And, I am thinking about the most beautiful place I always want to go in this life - St. Kilda island.

This is the first time after these few months when I am planning something without including "him".
It is something I should be proud of.
I know, time will cure the bleeding heart.
I am not crying anymore.
I am loving myself more than him everyday.
And, I am starting to dream, to hope and to smile again.
My world, without him, is not greying anymore.
I know, I will be fine.

"Some say love it is a river that drowns the tender reed,
Some say love it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed..."

But I say love, it is something miracle, magical and far beyond I can reach.
I think I could never love again. At least, it is not now.

The sky tonight is start raining again.
The raindrops are slowly flowing down from the window.
It's just like wiping away the tears inside the heart.
I know, when it stop raining, the tears inside the heart will stop dropping too.
I know, when the sun is raising again tomorrow, the wounds on the bleeding heart will start to recover.

Another remarkable day and moment

Feel like writing something, but I dunno where to start...

 Finally, the story has came to an end, hopefully. I dunno if I have done something wrong and hurt him unconsciously. And I am not sure if it is really because of the words I say or perhaps there's something else that caused to the ending story like this.

 Heart-breaking. Yea, but it has past.

 Today, when I wake up, I feel sth different. The confident, independent and ambitious Angeline is back. It's just like wake up from a dream and finally everything has back to its reality. Although I may still miss the sweet dream I have, but it is still remains as a dream, it will never turn to be true.

 Anyway, thanks for giving me such a wonderful and memorable birthday on my age of 26. I will miss it. And, thanks for wake me up from the dream so soon way before I have drown into the dream. 

Today is 15 Oct, another remarkable day in my life. This is the day I stand up again from the fall. And this is the day when I start to plan my life path and wish to see the world again with my eyes. All the best to me and... Wish me good luck! Ciaoz~

爱情和婚姻

爱情和婚姻是两码事，

你若求的是风雨同舟，
就不要以为爱是一见钟情、你侬我侬就可以天长地久。

傻。爱。

爱真的能让人变傻。
从前的我从来都不相信。
现在却慢慢体会，慢慢明白，
爱让我变成了一个什么样，傻傻的人。

一个自负，高傲，什么都无所谓，不在乎的我，
现在居然难以置信地为了他，可以放弃身段，放弃自己的高傲，放弃了一切一切从前不可能放弃的事物。
从来都不计较回报，只要他的一个肯定的微笑，一句衷心的谢谢，或是一句温暖的问候，
多少的付出都变得值得。

为了他的一句话，我可以东奔西跑地搜索资料，甚至帮他打点一切大小事务 （就算他还未开口），帮他安排得妥妥当当，没有后顾之忧。

知道他的生日即将到来，两个星期前就四处奔走为他买他最喜欢的礼物，也为他策划一个浪漫温馨的生日。

知道热爱潜水的他喜欢大海，喜欢沙滩，为了他，我到处去搜集信息与他分享。

我的电话24小时都为他开着。一有信息，那份兴奋又期待的心情，却每次都失望。终于等到他的信息时，眼泪会激动得夺眶而出。

所有的，任何的事情，东西，只要和他有关，我都会想起他千遍万遍。大至他的相片，小至旁人的一个细微举动，都会让我陷入对他的思念海洋。尤其是夜里，常常想念他到不能入睡，甚至失眠。

原来，真正喜欢着一个人，以前多么在乎的东西，只要你的那个他可以开心，幸福，
多么在乎的东西也都变得无所谓了。多少的付出，委屈和辛苦也会随着他阳光般的笑容而化为乌有。

原来，我是真的真心喜欢他，就算知道未来的路有多么的艰辛，多么的坎坷。可是，如果他愿意，我会勇敢地和他一起走下去。

真的喜欢你，你知道吗？

也许，
这一辈子，
你也不会知道，
近在咫尺的我真正的心意与想法。

也许，
这一辈子，
我也不会告诉你，
那颗真正爱着你的心正在悄悄地哭泣。

也许，
这一辈子，
你也不会知道，
不论何时何地，任何时刻，我都无法停止想念你。

也许，
这一辈子，
我们慢慢渐行渐远，不会再有交集。

可是，
随着时间一天天地过。
三个月了，
我慢慢发现，慢慢确认。。。
我想，
我是真的真的喜欢你。

Something is missing

Finally, we have moved out from the house where we have been staying for the last 4 years.
A place full with memories...
A place where we grow up to become a better person...
A place where it accompanies us for all the good and bad moments...
A place where I will never forget.

Now, everything has changed.
The place to live, the place to work, the moment when heart to heart...
I know, nothing could turn it back.
That's what life all about.
Sometimes, there is something or someone which / who you cherish alot,
when the timing is past, it means past..
It's all over.
And you just can't help it, no matter how hard you try to sustain it.
It just didn't turned out to be the way you want it to be.

It's kinda sad.
In chinese, there is a phrase saying that "有遗憾的人生才能体现生活的美丽".
It means, only an imperfect life could lead us to experience the true beauty of living.
I guess this is the only faith I have to keep me stronger, to keep me moving forward.

Love, happiness.... Will it be possible to me?
I don't know.
At least, I know it is quite impossible for me at the moment.
Sometimes, I am wondering, what if I never met you, I will not be so disappointed to my life as what I am right now.
However, sometimes, I am still thanking God to bring you into my life.
Because, if it is not you, I will never know how much I could sacrifice for loving you,
and what is the best way to love you.
I guess, the best way to love you is letting you go...
Go for your very own happiness, go for your dreams, and go for whatever you wanna do in this life.

And I,
I will be here, wishing you all the best, seeing you succeed someday...
And until that day, I will be really happy for you, even we are never being together.

Something is missing, something has changed,
but thanks God, it has been once passing through my life,
And I can still remember every single moment just like it was happened yesterday.

I'll Love You Still

I've been thinking it over and over again these days.
The memories between us, good and bad, keep appearing in my mind, non-stoply.
There was once I am really nearly to give up.
And there was once I wanna walk to your front and tell you how I feel.

Sometimes, I think I am crazy cos what I am doing right now is definitely not the me from the past who would be able to do it.
I think, I am deeply, madly falling in love with you.
I wanna share with you everything I know, everything I have,
and every moment of happiness and sadness.
I want you to know my everything just like I wanna know everything of you.

I know there's alot of differences and alot of obstacles between us.
But I wanna tell you now, I will never be afraid.
There's a voice from my heart telling me my true feelings.
I know, I have met someone who I wanna spend my rest of the life with.

Love is so amazing.
It comes unconsciously and suddenly.
I never be so sure about my feelings of love.
Just like I never met someone like you.

I am not sure if there's one fine day you will be able to read this.
And I am not sure if there is a happy ending between us.
But there's one thing for sure, I wanna tell you how much I love you.
It's more than I can imagine.
I will love you still even it takes years for you to know about it.
And I will love you still until one day it is impossible for us to make it.

Yes, this is a love letter for you. And you will know who you are.

人生苦短，但是爱原来可以很长，很久

每一个人出生后都坐bb 车，
小孩子踩单车，
长大后坐私家车，
老了总会需要坐救护车，
到了人生的最后时刻坐的就是黑箱车。

每一个人从出生的那一刻就已经知道注定有两腿一伸的时候。
人生真的很短。
但是，我真的希望在这短短的人生里，我可以对你说，我真的爱过你。。。

＊看着《On Call 36小时》的霎时感触。

勇敢去爱

很多时候，我往往因为太在意别人看我的眼光，太在意别人对我的评价，
当幸福靠近时，我却止步，不敢往前跨步。
很多时候，因为我的胆小懦弱，我后悔了。后悔没有积极争取，没有适时地表达自己最真的想法，也没有向对方坦诚。
当错过了，一切已经太迟。

人生没有take 2，幸福也许只有一次。
我想，此时此刻的我想通了。
在爱情里，我一直是胆小鬼，一直渴望别人付出，而自己坐收渔翁之利。
现在，我想大声呼喊，“我绝对不会再像以前一样”！
现在的我想做一个敢爱敢恨，勇敢追求自己幸福的女孩。
我不会再在意别人对我的眼光，因为我必须对自己负责，对自己坦诚。
哪怕，积极争取后的结果是那么的不如人愿，那又如何？
至少，我没有后悔。我做了我分内应该做的事。结果如何，已经不在我的控制范围。

现在的我只想勇敢去爱！
当我献出我的真心，我的关怀，企求的不一定是你的回应，
因为我只要你知道，我是真的喜欢你！
那样真的已经足够。

When everything gets back to normal

After a series of memorable events in the month of June 2012, the good ones and bad ones, everything gets back to its original track. Yea, it's June, one of my favourite month of the year after December (the Christmas month, of course). I would like to say thanks to my dearly friends and colleagues for such a wonderful celebration for my birthday this year. I really really had a good time with you all and the celebration is awesome! Thank you. Of course, not to forget a friend of mine who brought me to Pulau Tioman for my very first experience of Scuba Diving. It's superb and I swear I wanna get myself to be a certified diver real soon! Stay tune... =)

Well, today is 3rd July 2012, another unbreathable busy day. Rush in and out for appointments and come back with a "mountain" of works on the desk waited to be done. No matter how, I know I can make it! It's a kind of motivation for me (reverse thinking). Yea, I am totally good with it.

So, everything has back to normal. Jiayou Angeline! You know you can make it no matter how many challenges lie ahead. Jiayou jiayou jiayou!! =)

可惜不是你

Hey，

你听见吗？

我想对你说。。。

那些天的相处，让我充满了震撼，感动，幸福和温暖。

你是那么的体贴，温柔，为我从头到脚打点一切。

你似读心术，还没开口的话，你已经明了。

你总在我左右，保护我，照顾我，让我没有顾虑，勇敢的去做想做的事。

当我孤单寂寞的时候，你说笑话逗我开心。

当冷风吹向我的时候，你拥我入怀，深怕我着凉。

当我害怕的时候，你握着我的手，指导我，给我鼓励。

当我不小心睡着了，你让我依偎在你的肩膀，让我安心入睡。

在心里，我默默的告诉自己，

将来，要是有谁有幸成为了你的另一半，那她一定是世界上最幸福的女人。

那天晚上，你抱起我，走向海边。

看着远处乌黑无际的大海，习习的凉风，还有漫天的星星。

好浪漫，好浪漫。。。

我想，我不小心地喜欢上了你。

和你在一起的时光，我变得很依赖你。

就像粘着爸爸的小孩，喜欢对你撒娇，喜欢被你呵护，疼爱的感觉。

那天晚上我们的告别，

你紧紧抱着我。

我微笑着和你道别，心里期待下一次的约会。

但是，现实很残酷。

不知怎么的，我们慢慢没有了话题。

你也慢慢的冷漠。

我知道，我们没有办法再继续下去。

我们的前面有着一座座无法跨越的围墙。

现实把我们从梦中敲醒。

这些天，我想了很多。

我不想去破坏我们曾经共同拥有的美好回忆。

与其将它破坏，我宁愿把它深深地埋起来，完整的埋在我心里最深处，小心翼翼地呵护它，将它变成永远。

虽然心痛，虽然受伤，但那毕竟是我们共同的美好记忆。

虽然可惜，可惜不是你陪我到最后，

但也感谢那是你，曾经牵着我的手，

让我依然感受到你的那份温柔。

You will know, you have made it!

It is a beautiful Saturday morning, a non-working day for me, yea for sure~

Reading through all the previous posts in the blog, it just like reading through your life growing process.
Good times and hard times..
Life is too short and time is too limited, we are living in rush everyday.
But sometimes, I like to slower down to have some time to think over again those days, people i met and the things had past.
And just to reconfirm that you are actually on the right path.

When someone around you who surprises of your changes and feels that you have became someone greater.. And you will know, you have made it. =)

给自己的信

Hey ，亲爱的我：

也许最近有些领悟，有些感触，想为以前的自己，现在的自己，还有以后的自己写一封信。

人生苦短。每一个人如此幸运的诞生在这个千变万化，美丽的世界。人生只有一次。如果在有生之年没有好好的去看看这个世界，没有充分地去过每一天，到了最后我想也只剩下遗憾。因此，如果你还有未实现的梦想，还有不曾到过的地方，还有未完成的事；如果你还年轻，还有能力去完成所未完成的一切；那么就勇敢踏出你的步伐，哪怕就那么疯狂地追逐一次。

人生没有多少个十年，不要让青春留白，不要让人生留下遗憾。勇敢地去追梦吧！

双子座的我，对这个世界，对我的人生充满了无数的梦想和期望。有很多地方，很多事是我在有生之年想去实践，想去挑战的。

世界之大，我想去世界的每一个角落，遇见不同的人，体验不同的文化和生活，倾听每一个不同的故事。生存了那么久的地球是个很美丽的星球。大海何其奥妙，高山如此壮丽，还有很多稀奇古怪，让人叹为观止的自然奇景。

我想到苏格兰的高山和悬崖，到那个世界称之的“海角天涯”，亲听那落寞凄凉的故事。

我想成为一名执照承认的潜水员，到世界上每一个美丽的岛屿，探索海底世界的奥秘。

我想去每一个美丽的海滩，和大自然拥抱。

我想成为一个成功的专业人士，职场上的女强人，有自己舒适的车子和房子。然后，我想要遇见一个非你莫属的真命天子，幸福地步入礼堂，组织一个美满的家庭。

人生就那短短几十年，如果真的能完成哪怕只是那一半的梦想，我想，那样对于我而言已经不枉来这世界走一回。人的一生是由一个梦想连接着另一个梦想而继续前进的。那你呢？

他和他

从前，从前，有两个他 －－ 他A和他B。

他A聪明迷人。
他B风趣稳重。

他A温柔浪漫，喜欢说甜言蜜语。
他B幽默又善解人意，喜欢在不经意时给你一个关心问候。

和他A在一起时，很多时候都必须小心翼翼，深怕做了错事，说了不应该说的话。
和他B在一起时，很轻松自在，不需担心做的事、说的话，只要做回自己就行。

和他A在一起，他会告诉你他的人生和小秘密。
和他B在一起，他会和你分享他的你的生活点滴和生活乐趣。

和他A在一起时，他会不经意地握你的手，拥抱你。
和他B在一起时，他会时时刻刻关心你是否吃饱，渴了，冷了，累了。

他A经常说一些让人不是很理解或赞同地道理。
他B经常能说一些让我深信不疑的道理，并铭记于心。

他A和他B都经常忙于工作。

和他A在一起时，如果他工作很累，和他吃饭就只是为了吃饭而吃饭。
和他B在一起时，就算他工作很累，他也绝无怨言，特地抽空和你开心地用餐。

他A很有主见，经常帮你决定很多琐事。
他B喜欢迁就于你，以你为中心地去思考和决定很多事。

他A和他B的身边都围绕了很多花蝴蝶。

他A会经常和你讨论身边女生向他表白的趣事。
他B会经常提醒你，他还是单身。

他A曾经在我的心里划上了一道很深的伤口，让我差点彻底崩溃。
他B在我最伤心绝望的时候出现，抚平了我的伤口。

这样的他A和他B，这样的剧情，就好比高圆圆的［单身男女］一样，我选择了脚踏实地，成熟朴实的他B。。。

那你呢？

最幸福的事

当人到了一个年龄，

人生走到了某个阶段，

最幸福的事莫过于两个相知相惜的心，手牵着手走进礼堂，

山盟海誓，共创未来的梦。

当身边的朋友，一个接一个的步入人生的另一个里程碑，

看着他们幸福的笑容，

我想，这就是他们共同拥有的，最幸福的事。。

婚姻，对于我而言，

似乎很遥远，遥不可及，

但又好像经常在我的身边打转。

有人说，婚姻完整了人生。

没有婚姻的人生就不美满吗？

有人说，我是一个单身主义者。

但是，其实，在我小小的内心深处，

一个完整，幸福，美满的婚姻也是我人生的停靠站。

小小的心灵，真心期待一个白马王子的出现，

带领我踏足世界每一个角落，

分享他的春夏秋冬，海阔天空，

告诉我宇宙，星星，月亮和太阳的故事，

领略人生的酸甜苦辣。

“执子之手，偕老白头”

这八个字意义深远，神圣非凡。

为人生最幸福的事加油！^__^

Keep On Fighting!

I know, something is different right now..

People, environment, work... everything surrounding me is no longer the same.

I can feel it from every single tiny signal at every corners..

I know, I have to change too.

Like the advise from a senior of mine,

We shall always look forward, move forward.

I think I am in the process of changing..

Starting from my attitude..

And I have set a new principal for myself.

1) Never lose the confident when everyone out there turns you down

2) Never forget the principal of life whenever you trying to attain your motives

3) Never be influenced by what other people trying to tell you, just believe in what you see and basically yourself

4) Never let the fame and authority blinded your mind, you are at the age of learning, do what you suppose to do

5) Prove the world that they are wrong by showing the facts not saying

6) Be humble, friendly, helpful, patience, kind-hearted

7) Always calm down the mind and heart, be cheerful, motivated and energetic to face every challenge everyday

Keep on fighting, Angeline! Jiayou jiayou!!

Never Say Never

Well, we all human beings..

Sometimes, something that could really bring us down for a while.

No matter how strong your heart and your mind could be,

it just beat you down unconsciously.

Human, sometimes, is too weak to be defeated by other people words.

We are too easy to be influenced by others, and we just couldn't help it.

Sooner or later, we lost ourselves, lost the direction, and lost our dreams.

And yet, we still couldn't find the way out.

Human, do you know the meaning of life?

Everyone could be somebody, if you really wanna be one.

Words could be the most powerful weapon, but your faith is stronger.

Sometimes, people just couldn't see the real you,

but only you could show them how best you are.

Those who always shout how good they are are those who are empty inside.

Your effort and your hardwork are never a waste.

Even though it is not appreciated by some people,

but there's always someone out there who are so grateful to have you with them.

Never lose your pride and confident, even people is doubting your capability.

Because you can prove them wrong and shut their mouth without using a single weapon.

Never devalue yourself when other people does.

Because they are just the fool who can't see how precious you are.

Never defeat by other people words, even though the whole word turns you down.

Because one day, they gonna regret to what they have said to you.

Always remember,

you own your own life.

No one should live their lives for others.

And no one could defeat you, except you yourself.

Cheers!

We just can't please everyone..

It's so true that we can't please everyone in every condition.

Sometime I wonder,

why people just can't be more considering and trying to put themselves into other people shoes??

If they did, things could be more simple.

In the same situation, I was trying to think as I was he/she and I found out that I could truly understand hows the feeling of the opponent. When I did so, the issue or problem is not as critical as it was thought initially.

Sometime i am feeling sad,

because when I look back the past and how tolerance I could be to the rest..

Unfortunately, the return from the beneficiary is very disappointing.

No matter what I have did for them, all the goodwill becomes a "MUST" and it is not be appreciated.

Even so, I am still holding strongly to my principal.

“人不为我，我为人人”..

It's just that my tolerance has been set a limit.

After so many considering and tolerance, I will live for myself just for once.

So, my dear friend,

if you read this, please think and try to see and feel everyone and everything around you with your heart. I am sure you will have different thought and point of view when looking at the same situation or issue.

No one in this world is owing anyone, and no one should live their life for someone.

Because, we own our own life!

Cheers!

It's CNY again

Another year gone.. It's CNY again! It's a season of joy, laughter, love and happiness.. I couldn't wait anymore longer.. I wanna go home! =)