Reborn

Sometimes, it's really hard to explain how and why but you just reborn from the painful past at a certain point and timing that you can't pre-set nor control.

After so many months, finally I have passed through.
This is the first time I put down all the memories with him and decide to carry on my life path without him.
And this is the first time when i see his message I have no feelings at all.
Up to this point, I know, everything has became history.
It's not forgetting everything, but it just buried somewhere.

A life without him,
I move my focus to work and I am happy as more good ideas pop-out for works.
I love myself more and start gaining back my passion of living.

The earth is still turning,
the sun is still going up every morning,
and life goes on...

Reborn from the moment and I wanna continue to be shining throughout this life.
Cheers!

The Non-Stop Tears 止不住的泪

究竟过了多少个夜晚，那不听话的泪水总在不经意的思念中划落？
开朗勇敢的我，从此害怕寒冷的夜，害怕寂寞。

也许，世间上总有很多的无奈和遗憾。
越想得到的就会离你越远。

每每想起你温柔的微笑，心总是会隐隐作痛。
每每看见和你有关的人，事，物，我还是会想起你。
看着电话里的你，很想知道你在做什么？吃饭了吗？今天过得好吗？

我想，我们之间横跨着宏大的海洋。

即便我想奋不顾身地朝你游去，而你却一再躲避，把我推开。
如今，我们过不了也回不去了。

淡淡的忧伤，淡淡的遗憾成为了我的生活习惯。
我想往后，蓝蓝的海，蓝蓝的天空，
恐怕，我只能想起你。。。

Give Up

看着电脑荧幕上，我和你的合照。
回忆着那一幕幕让我感动，让我温暖，让我心动的画面。
也许，那些已经不再存在。
也许，你已经不会再回来。

泪，湿了双眼。
哭哑了，心碎了，心灵已体无完肤。

该醒了。

Hey,
也许你并不知道，
曾经有一个女孩，真真正正地爱着你。
为了你，放下她引以为傲的自信，放弃了她身边任何一个可能幸福的追求者。
渐渐的，连一直伴随着她的开朗乐观也忘了。

也许你还不了解，
她的生活从此因你而转。
她爱你更胜于爱自己。
她愿意和你长相厮守，哪怕生活多么艰苦，未来多么艰难，她从来也不会畏惧退缩。

那样的一个她，
累了。
心，伤痕累累。
删除了所有和你有关的联系，空间，聊天室。
无法回头了。
这一次，她决定放下所有对你的爱和思念。
不回头，不后悔。

An Undelivered Gift - for him

This is Mr. Potato Head in The Amazing Spiderman series. A gift that I have bought form HK Disneyland shop and I wish to send it to the owner.

Hopefully I still have this chance to pass this to him. But until now, it is still remained as an undelivered gift. =(

Inspire and Be Inspired

Inspire others and being inspired.

I never thought I could be good enough to inspire other people, not even once. 

I always know that I am not good enough and that's why i always strive for the best I can.

And that's why I like to challenge myself.

Honestly, I was totally touched when my outward bound camp instructor (a nice guy from New Zealand) saying in front of everybody that I am the one who reminded him the true meaning of his job. 

He said, "perhaps I have too used to all the training programs I have for the participants and eventually I have forgotten the very important meaning behind every activities and every tasks given. Angeline has brought me to think it over again and suddenly, I find it back everything I used to remember last time. Thanks for making my day!" 

He smile at me and pat my shoulder. My eyes are filled with tears. I keep telling myself that I'll never cry in front of so many people. Luckily I didn't.

Seriously, I am very happy when I hear him saying this. He actually brings me back those confident that I used to have those days. He reminds me who I am those days.

As I have said, I really dislike the me right now...

A girl who is living her life surrounding a guy who she thinks is very important to her. Eventually, she lost herself. She forgets how proud she used to be, how confidents she is towards those who denies her. And now, she has putting herself so low in front of the guy she thinks she likes the most. But she gets in the end? Nothing. Not even a sympathy from this guy.

Boyd, my outward bound camp instructor, has shown me the girl I suppose to be. Yeap, a pround and confident girl like me, who never care about other people's perception towards me. I just don't care. A girl like me, I have no idea how and why I fall for this guy and it seems like never stop until this moment.

Should I say he is the lucky one? 

I think he even never knew that.

Well, my heart is getting tired with the scars. This time, I really wish I can walk away from him, from all this happiest memories that he has created for me. 

I wish I can do it and find back the real me, be the real me.

God bless!