Saturday, January 25, 2014

曾经的疯狂

曾经的不顾一切,
曾经的义无反顾,
曾经的无怨无悔,
曾经的执着,
曾经的坚定,
曾经的爱。。。

时过境迁,那份赤热的心慢慢冷却。
留下的只剩回忆里的曾经,回忆里的疯狂。
但是心里总有一个属于你的地方,在我们最无畏的岁月里闪着光。

面对你,我已不确定自己的心是否还那么执着。
我不知道是该无悔地付出,还是自私地退缩。
甚至,我开始害怕遇见你,害怕我再见面的时刻。
还爱吗?
我不确定。。。
不爱了吗?
为什么心在某时某刻想起你的时候还在隐隐作痛?
也许现在的我已不是最初的那个我了。

感谢那一段回忆里的疯狂,不管我走了多远都不会遗忘。
那一天一道彩虹划破了我的泪光,
我想, 放手是我最后还爱你的证明。



Sunday, January 12, 2014

会过去的

两年了。
坚持了两年,在无数个留着泪水的夜晚和无尽的失望和心碎后,
结束了。

再一次,我踩上了一只到不了幸福之岛的船。
然后,我又再次漂浮在无尽的大海中,继续寻找可以让我依靠的木头。
万幸,我总可以从中抽离,理智地跳入海中,不再留念。

虽然我不断地告诉自己,忘了过去,忘了他,重新出发。
但是,曾经幸福的很幸福,曾经感动的很感动,曾经拥抱过很温暖。
那些是一辈子也不可能会忘记的。
只是,那颗伤痕累累的心,不再为他跳动。
此刻,脑海一偏宁静,没有一丝丝的涟漪。
信念是如此的坚决。

会过去的。
我还是我,坚强勇敢,努力不懈,对未来充满期待的我,不曾改变过。


Saturday, January 11, 2014

Relief & Reborn

Hi 2014!
You are being nice to me so far.
I am getting stronger and slowly back to the right path.
A relationship that shouldn't start at the beginning should be ended somewhere.
But how about the broken heart that seems never be mended again?

I am lucky and I am really appreciate it.
The broken heart that I thought will never mend is melt in a feeling we called - friendship love.
And now, it's reborn.
How lucky I am to have everybody beside me.
Every word you say, every care you show are really touching my broken heart.
It's like a mother-hand that do the most beautiful sewing job to put the broken heart together again.

Life is a process.
Everyone has to be experienced something to grow up.
Sometimes we confuse and sometimes we lost.
Luckily, there is always a helping hand that awaits me and guide me back on track again.

My dear all, you are really amazing!
Thanks for being by my side for this hard time, and now I am relief!

Carrying the status "single" is because you are still waiting for the one who is mature enough to know that honesty, commitment and loyalty are the priority, not an option.

Save for the best! Cheers!

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

To all the hurts you give - Thank You!

Hello my 2014~!
It's a new chapter, just like a new piece of paper, and I am ready to paint my page with all the amazing colors.

This morning, when I wake up, my mind is extremely calm and my thought is extremely clear.
I know exactly how should I do with this miserable relationship, what is the truth behind all the lies.
I know exactly what is the next step.

Luckily, all the tears and sadness and heart-broken have left in 2013.
Nothing is really matter, no one could be bothering me now.
Everything ends in 2013.

The past 2 years, since the day I found myself fall in love with this guy, my life has changed completely.
The proud and ego Angeline has gone.
I never have so much tears and crying in a year. It's just like the tears I could have have for this life has been used up within this 2 years.
I am trying really hard in all the ways to forget you, to accept the fact that I love you and then finally be brave to pursue the love I am thinking of.
All the while I am loving you with all my heart and that's real.
Even though what you have gave doesn't equal to what you will get, but it's the experience that teaches me a lot.
And now, it comes to the end.
I am relief!

I am not blaming anyone or anything.
This is life. Almost everyone is gonna experience this.

Hey, you know what you have missed?
It's a true heart that was once ready to sacrifice anything to protect you and love you.

It's 2014.
To all the hurts you gave, I wanna say "Thank You".
And Halo 2014, I am Angeline again!