Relieve

There's a courage out from nowhere today urges me to find out the truth behind...
Finally, I texted him, preparing to say something what my heart wants to say...
I have waited his replies for the whole day and finally, the question is being answered.

It is a courage I have been looking for so long.
I told him everything except one thing...
The growing love...

I dunno if he is really got what I want to tell him.
And I am not sure if he is really understand what my words saying.
No matter how, it is a relieve for me, at least.

Hopefully, after today, there is a brand new me,
who is living her life with all the dreams and passion again.
Hopefully, after today, I can really put it down the love of mine to him,
and starting to look for or dream of my prince charming.

I hope, the miracle would finally happens on me one day.
I believe, it will~

放不下

几米说：

總有很多東西無法挽留，
比如走遠的時光，比如枯萎的情感；

總有很多東西難以割捨，
比如追逐的夢想，比如心中的喜愛；

在人生前進的道路上，
只要認真努力做自己，
相信會有另一扇門為你

而打開。

人生短短幾十年，
不要給自己留下了什麼遺憾，
想笑就笑。


我知道，是时候停止流泪，
可是，
无法忘记的回忆该如何忘记？
无法停止的想念该如何克制？
放不开，受了伤的心该如何复原？
不想再哭却该如何再次灿烂的笑？

I think that's called "L.O.V.E"

If you love something, let it go.
If it comes back to you, its yours forever.

给最爱的那个你

过了好久好久，没有你的消息。
每天每天，我都在等待着，等待着你的讯息。
你。。近来，好吗？
是否忙得忘了吃饭？
熬夜了吗？

没有我的日子，你别来无恙吧？
没有你的日子，我会慢慢习惯，就像当初慢慢习惯了你的存在一样。

我不会让你失望。
我会变成你最喜欢的，最开朗的我。
世界就算再荒凉，爱过了你就不会再孤单。

关系虽然不再一样，可是关心却不能说断就断。
只是，现在的关心只能默默地，不被你发现。

我最亲爱的那个你，请你一定要好好地，比以前更幸福地过每一天。
写在这里，也许你一辈子也不会懂，
可是这些已经是我的全部可以给你的幸福。
飞翔吧，飞向你的梦想，飞向你的幸福，我最爱的那个你。

永远的配角。我不要！

爱情就像奇迹般，让两个人同时爱上对方，
让两个陌生的心走在一起。
世界上有千千万万亿个人，而偏偏就这两个人相爱了。
我想，爱，真的就是上帝赐给世人的奇迹。

这样的奇迹，什么时候会发生在我身上？

重新看着《恶作剧之吻》，看着吴哈尼傻傻却不曾放弃地爱着白胜祖。
个中的酸甜苦辣，就好像现实生活中的我。
只是，吴哈尼比我幸运得多。
现实生活中，我和他更本不可能天天见面。
他的生活如此忙碌。
而我也不象吴哈尼一样那么勇敢地表白。
至少，白胜祖是知道吴哈尼真正的心意，也能够慢慢观察她对他的爱的证明，然后感动。
这些是我无法让他看见的，就算是我真的多么努力让他看见。

我和吴哈尼唯一相似的，只有默默忍受，流泪，委屈，绝望。
就算如此，为什么我还是不能停止想念他呢？
我真的很努力去过每一天的生活，很努力让每一天变的精彩。
可是那个影子，那些回忆却一遍遍地播放在我的脑海里，挥之不去。

吴哈尼是故事中的主角。
而我却永远只是个配角。
还要等多久，还有多久，我才能变成这爱情故事的主角？

直到现在，我才了解，
人，当伤心绝望到达了顶点，就算心里再多么的痛，
眼睛却无法再流出泪水。

神啊，请让风带我飞像属于我的幸福方向。
请让我忘记所有的痛苦悲伤，
让我的世界再次亮起来，再次五彩缤纷，再次热情飞舞。
Please grant my wish...

Another peaceful night...

It is another peaceful night tonight.
I can feel the cold wind blows gentlely over my hair.
I can hear the songs singing by the little insects from the field.
And I can see the moon is hiding behind the cloudy sky.

Everything is so peaceful.
With the song of Westlife - The Rose playing in my phone.
I am drowning into a fantasy...

My imagination starts to go wide and wild...

I am thinking of the big wide field at the highland of Scotland.
I am thinking of the beautiful and mysterious nessies lake.
I am thinking about the historical castle of Scotland.
And, I am thinking about the most beautiful place I always want to go in this life - St. Kilda island.

This is the first time after these few months when I am planning something without including "him".
It is something I should be proud of.
I know, time will cure the bleeding heart.
I am not crying anymore.
I am loving myself more than him everyday.
And, I am starting to dream, to hope and to smile again.
My world, without him, is not greying anymore.
I know, I will be fine.

"Some say love it is a river that drowns the tender reed,
Some say love it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed..."

But I say love, it is something miracle, magical and far beyond I can reach.
I think I could never love again. At least, it is not now.

The sky tonight is start raining again.
The raindrops are slowly flowing down from the window.
It's just like wiping away the tears inside the heart.
I know, when it stop raining, the tears inside the heart will stop dropping too.
I know, when the sun is raising again tomorrow, the wounds on the bleeding heart will start to recover.

Another remarkable day and moment

Feel like writing something, but I dunno where to start...

 Finally, the story has came to an end, hopefully. I dunno if I have done something wrong and hurt him unconsciously. And I am not sure if it is really because of the words I say or perhaps there's something else that caused to the ending story like this.

 Heart-breaking. Yea, but it has past.

 Today, when I wake up, I feel sth different. The confident, independent and ambitious Angeline is back. It's just like wake up from a dream and finally everything has back to its reality. Although I may still miss the sweet dream I have, but it is still remains as a dream, it will never turn to be true.

 Anyway, thanks for giving me such a wonderful and memorable birthday on my age of 26. I will miss it. And, thanks for wake me up from the dream so soon way before I have drown into the dream. 

Today is 15 Oct, another remarkable day in my life. This is the day I stand up again from the fall. And this is the day when I start to plan my life path and wish to see the world again with my eyes. All the best to me and... Wish me good luck! Ciaoz~

爱情和婚姻

爱情和婚姻是两码事，

你若求的是风雨同舟，
就不要以为爱是一见钟情、你侬我侬就可以天长地久。