Something my heart wanna say...

I dunno whether I am thinking too much... but I can feel the difference among us...
I guess, I know the reason behind...

Life is tough.. We cannot please everyone.
Every single ppl in this world has their very unique perception and way of doing things.
Some ppl follow the majority,
some ppl go for the unique one,
and there's some, like me, finding the balance in between and choose the best one from our own view...
Even though i might be wrong sometimes...
But the intention is always true from the bottom of heart.

"Coordination" is one of my favourite word.
To me, the best coordination is when you can actually find the exactly 50-50 win-win solution among all that please everybody and no one get hurt from it.
It's not an easy job, but I guess I can take it.

I m very flexible.
And I can accept "almost" everythings without any obligation,
as long as it is not ridiculous.
That's the main reason why I m good in coordination.
Unfortunately, people may misjudge me with "no definite view"...

Attach my very own old phrase,
" You do not know me..."

That's all my heart wanted to say...
Maybe I m wrong...
But, I already done what I feel best to the situation and everybody.
Accept or Reject is already beyond my control.
And I never want to force anybody to agree with me cos I respect their difference.

Hopefully one day my heart could be hear...
But I know it's near impossible...
Bcos most of the time, You Do Not Know Me...
Perhaps, it's just like I never understand YOU~

There's something i wanna do in my life

Yeah, suddenly....
alot of thoughts in my mind.

But, i'm confused...
I am lost again in the middle of my journey.

Day in day out,
I am repeating my life day after day.

Time passes by,
I have forgotten my dreams, my hopes and my initial thoughts...

Who am i?
Where am i??
What am i doing rite now??!!

No, it's not what i want and where i wanna be rite now!
I want it more...

There's not much time for me now.
It's time to make decision.

But, suddenly,
I am confused again...

Time will get me through...
I will find the way...

~*My best ever birthday present*~

The month of May has came to an end.

Finally, it comes to my birthday month -- June.
Yeah, I am the Gemini!

This year, I have nothing much to ask for,
but feeling grateful for all the unbelievable events that happened to me this few days.

It is a miracle!

Here it goes the story...

29th May 2009

I was unexpectedly won a chance to meet Chin, Chen Ze Yao and Zhong Xin Yi (the main character from ) in real person by calling in to My FM! It's not easy to call in as I had been trying so hard for the past few days, but failed.

I was nearly to give up until my one last chance whereby it was the last chance for the fans to call in. It was about 4.49pm and during that time, Chin and the rest were on-air Live in My FM studio as well! When the moment I heard the DJ announced that the calling-in competition was started, I quickly pressed down the "call" button and put my mobile phone aside and continued reading the email sent by my clients. I was never think that i could be success this time like i never put too much expectation on that.

But...miracle just happened! A voice of "hello~" was heard! Oh My God!! This is my first OS in my mind... U know, I was in the office, how am I going to sing out loud the song? How am I going to answer all the questions? How am I going to speak to them properly?? I was totally messed up! Immediately, I ran out from the office and successfully get a private place whereby it was comfortable to talk to. I chose to sing <逆风>, song from Chin. I was shaking, and my voice was totally out of tune.

I remembered, Chin was helping me to finish the last 2 sentences. I heard he said "That's beautiful" through phone. Was he praising my voice? Or the song itself? Or his voice?? Haha! Until today, this is still a question mark to me. Anyway, thanks alot Chin, u are so great!

About 5.56pm, My FM staff called me to confirm with me the date, time and location -- 3.30pm at Greenbox, Sungei Wang. I was being informed that besides the meet-up, I was also enjoying the "VIP" area to watch their performance on stage and the priority to have their autograpgh before anyone else!! Can you believe it?!!!

31st May 2009

This was the date i have been waiting so long... Honestly, I was very nervous yet excited. As being told, I could bring along 3 friends for accompany, and I pick Doris, Caryne and Ah Dai. Hehe, thanks ya!

Finally, Xin Yi, Ah Ze and followed by Chin stepped into the room (No. 10, Greenbox). For the next 45 mins, all of us were having a great great yet memorable time inside there. I remembered me and Chin holding each other hands and staring each other for about 5 seconds without a single words! This made me feeling abit shy but the big smile on his face had comforted me alot.

After the gathering, we all went down to the lobby of Sungei Wang for the autography session. Hundreds of fans were already waiting there, shouting their names. When it's my turn to go forward to get their autograph, one of the staff stopped me. "What happned? What he wants?" I was wondering until he asked me to pose with Chin and the rest to allow the media to snap some photos for their own use. Oh thanks God! I am damn lucky!!

The Director of the drama with me

I guess, this is my best ever birthday present so far... Happy, excited, memorable and more... Until this moment, I still cant believe the recent events that happened to me. Why me? Thanks God for giving me this luck and fate; thanks to My FM, Halo Music and all the people that make this happen; thanks to Chin, Ah Ze, Xin Yi for everything you did; and finally thanks to my dear friends! Thanks for your accompany and support! I hope you all enjoy it as much as I do!

This year, my birthday wish....

Wishing everyone's dreams come true!

*Peace*

1, 2, 3, 4, 5

Wahh... 1, 2, 3, 4, 5! I have 5 days holidays!!

Haha! Well, dun envy me. It's a gift after a long tiring work.

How am I going to full-use this 5 precious days??
Hmm... still figuring out.

But, that's one thing for sure... I am gonna have a good good rest.

Forget all the unhappy events,

Enjoy the life in a small town where it's not so crowded and noisy,

Recharge the battery to walk further.

Sleep... sleep... Tonite, we sleep in a wonderland.

Goodnite, guys!

U do not know me...

Not many people in this world knows the real me.
Not even my friends around me (except a few of them and of course my family)

I am a typical Gemini, with multi personality.
It just like a lot of different persons living in a single body shell.
Sometimes, the one that shows in front of everybody may not really be the one that actually lives inside of me.

People starts judging me from their perception.
But unfortunately, most of the time, they are untrue.
And I never feel to explain any wrong judgement cos I really dun care.
As long as I know wat is the real me.

I could be a random person where i have not much requirement and expectation on anybody else around me.
But it doesn't mean that I could accept any ridiculous things given.
People may think that i m weak.
They start doing "things" in front and behind of me without any respectation.
And yet, they are still feeling "proud" of the things they have done.

Thing that really disappointed me most is, this person appears to be my friend for such a long time.
Could you feel the pain of disappointment?? Do you??
Please think back urself, have I ever say any single bad thing in front and behind of u even though I know u did it?!
Did I ever spread around or create any story to anybody else around us?!
If yes, please list it down! I m ready to hear....

I am extremely disappointed on u.
This time, you are really too much. It's already beyond my limitation.

PS:
Thanks alot to someone who guides me and cheers me up in all the way. Thanks alot! I m really feeling better right now. Thanks for your support as well. Thanks thanks thanks!!!

100% Perfect Guy

It's nearly impossible to meet any 100% Perfect Guy in this world.

Definition of 100% Perfect Guy:
- No smoking
- No drinking
- No clubbing
- Gentleman
- Generous
- Humorous
- Understanding
- Loves his family, wife and children
- Honest
- Humble
- Rich
- Capable
- Good looking
- Mature
.
.
.
etc...

Honestly, I never met one before (except my dad, he is a 100% Perfect Guy and Dad!) until last nite.
How lucky I was to meet this guy for dinner last nite.
It's really one of the happiest things that happen to me so far.

Who is the 100% Perfect Guy i am talking about?
He is our client.
The rest i will remain secret as i respect his privacy. =)

The Happiest People In The World

In the picture,

just look at their conditions...

There's no place to sleep,

still they have made some space for cat and dog.

Water leaking from the roof,

but yet everyone of them has a peaceful smile on their face.

The happiest people in the world are not those who have no problems,

but those who learn to live with things that are less than perfect!

Friends, do u know that?

Keep smiling always!