SELFISH

Hey the selfish human!
You are living everyday and keep thinking only about yourself.
You are grabbing anything you feel great from others without realising what you already have.
You are seeking respect, wealth and authority without realising that giving a portion to those needy could be one of the happiest thing you could have.
You are too greedy to ask for more, and in order to attain your goal, you are willing to do anything, even things that might hurt someone else.
And then, you have everything you want and you start posting how good life you have in Facebook, Instagram and other social media wishing to gain some attention and respect from people around you.

You basically have everything! And still, you are complaining everything or anyone around you whenever there's something goes against you. And obviously, you never put yourself into others shoes if there's another different story behind all the objections.

I have seen someone who is complaining about a footballer after the match with all the negative words. Obviously, we do not know the footballer in person, and this is a football match and we are only the audience, how could you simply give a comment or judge his personality because of a single incident that you have seen from your point of view? And you are talking so loud and trying to influence others to support your negative comment towards this footballer.

In this incident, I didn't comment much. I keep silent at the end and it doesn't mean I agree with you. It's just that I do not want the argument continues. I do not know the footballer in person as well. But from my point of view, he could have been experiencing some hard time of losing the match and look, this is the World Cup! I bet you could be doing the same or worst if you are losing something that you really wish for. Think about it... And now, could you imagine the disappointment of this footballer?

Writing this over here it's just simple because i think of some incidents or experiences I had before out of sudden. And because of some inspirations from the amazing book of Terry travels with Ukulele.

Selfish human, please think twice and make a change to a better place of living. Out of all, we are just brothers and sisters living on this planet we called it earth with different skin color, races and religions.

=)

偶然的涟漪

原来过了那么久，
压抑着不去回忆任何和你有关的一切。
以为恢复平静的生活不再对你遗留一丝的留恋。

偶然的一张照片却震撼了我平静的心。
我知道，有些爱不可能忘记。
有些遗憾会永远留在心底，提醒着我惜福。

我变得更勇敢了。
既然无法忘记，那我愿意诚实地接受，面对。
爱完美的我也终于明白，
接受人生的不完美。

学着享受有缺陷的人生，
只要每天开开心心，你也幸福地活着，
人生也就这样吧！

共勉之

Life goes on... with LOVE

Hi bloggie!
It's November now!
Soon, we are welcoming the last season of the year, the merry Merry Christmas!

Earlier of October, I felt my life was missing some parts...
My soul was trapped somewhere and I just couldn't find the key to unlock it.
I thought I could never love again.
Until one point, on one fine day, out of sudden, unexpectedly...
I found the missing piece...

My heart is warmed again, melted in something we called "Love".
Learned from the past experiences, this time I let the heart follows its destiny.
Time will tell how much love is true.
No more tears, no more heartache, no more rules and no more mind game.
This time, I feel really comfortable with what I have right now.
God bless!

Hey, guess what, Angeline has grown up again.
No more a little girl next-door.
Life is full of hopes and surprises.
When the door is shut, there's always another one opened somewhere and awaited you to discover it.

"平常心" is the faith I am holding right now.
Let the loving heart filled every moment of my life,
And the passion of living to fly high in the sky.

Life is beautiful.
And I'm so alive right now!
Life goes on...
And let it goes with L.O.V.E.

Missing U No More

I know I shouldn't counting anymore...
The useless counting...

But hey, guess what, just out of sudden I think of you and where we started.
It's about a year since then till now,
Things changed.
I miss you...

Let it go...
Time will get me through.
I'll be alright then.

爱。转角

一个转角，谁知道还会遇见谁。
好的，不好的，也许已经命中注定。

一个转角，一个希望。
曾经被破碎的梦，现在的我将它再次一片片缝合，
期待下一个懂得欣赏，把他捧在手心的人。

过去的点点滴滴，所有的悲伤和快乐，我选择将它遗留在上一个转角。
不带任何的情绪，思念和回忆。

Terry 说：“女人啊，爱情不是你的全部。”

从那一天，当你离开了，
也许我的心也自由了。
很努力地，一步步，走向真正属于我的世界。

今天，当我抬头仰望天空，
天空没有了你的脸，
但我却看见了属于我的梦想，我的自由，我的生活的意义。

拒绝悲伤。
Angeline 一直都是勇敢的，快乐的。
加油！

3 months and I'm still good and sound

There's so many things in my mind and I wish to share here...

Where should I start?

3 months already, I am still alive, just good and sound. 

Slowly, day after day, I am developing a new target of life.

My sky has finally turned blue and clear. 

Everything happens around seems to be so motivated to me.

Still, I do missing you sometimes, especially when some of the common scenes and words that we had have before.

But now, I treat all of this a memory, just a memory that I will smile whenever I think of it.

I know I'll never forget you, but who the hell on earth doesn't had this?

I have accepted the cruel reality.

Recently, I read the blog from Terry, a guy who is traveling around the world with his ukulele. He is a Taiwanese.

His very inspiring words really touches me a lot.

I love his courage, his independency and nuttiness. And I really wish to travel alone like him like nobody business.

I am always waiting for a companion, a travel companion, a life companion...

But then I realise that, if you are keep waiting for someone to accomplish your dreams together, your dreams will remain just a dream. Nothing would happen in the end. 

So, if this is the fact that you gotta be all alone, why not just take up the challenge and prove to the world that you will be fine no matter how far you travel.

And what's more, the beautiful world is all under your feets, and one by one awaiting to be discovered.

Isn't it sounds great?

I've no idea what will happen in the future,

and I know exactly that everything is possible.

So when I am still able to do whatever I can, and I shouldn't just wait for someone who could never give you an answer or certainty.

It's time to live for myself, just all for my own.

I'm Back!

I thought I'll never blog again.

Time passes by...
History remains history.
Sun is still coming out everyday.
Me is still me.

The only difference is...
You are no longer the priority.
I don't greet you morning and night anymore.
You are no longer the first and the last thing I m thinking about every day and night.
You are no longer my only source of happiness.

Now,
I wake up everyday with a reason, a reason that is nothing to deal with you.
I dun wait for your messages and calls.
I eat properly, sleep nicely, and live my life happily.
My future plan is a plan without you.
I dream about future without your existence.

It seems like there's nothing on earth could hurt me anymore.
The wound that you gave me could never hurt me again.

Even though I do missing u once in a blue moon,
but it makes me understand even clearer that I'll never fall in love with you again.

I quit from your life, so that I could own my own.
I refuse to stay in your world, because I know I could find somewhere that belongs to me.
I reject the sadness, because I believe I could smile again.

I Love You, and I Really Really Do

3 weeks already...
27th June, you told me that it's better for us to be friend.
You said I am a good girl and I can find someone else better easily.
You said you doesn't fall in love with the girl that everyone else is guessing lately.
You said you are just not ready to have any commitment in a relationship.

2 years ago...
You makes me fall in love with you completely.
You makes me feel the love and happiness again that I've lost it long time ago.
You makes me willing to sacrify everything, yes everything to love you.

I love you.
I really really do.
How am I going to forget it just like that?
How am I going to pretend like you never exist?

I don't care how people judge you, how people comment about you.
I trust you with my eyes and heart.
I just love everything about you, the good and the bad.

You said I am too dreamy.
You said I have watched too many dramas and movies.
But,
Do you know that it is the true response from someone who is truly falling in love?

3 weeks already...
I am pretending I am good in front of everybody including you.
I am forcing myself to face the fact that we are friend now.

But whenever I am holding my phone, I wish to hear from you.
I wish to know that you are fine, you have eaten and you are happy.
I wish to take care of you like before.
But I have no right to do so...
I am nobody, to you.

New Zealand was once my dream.
But now, whenever I think of planning my itinerary for my NZ trip, I will think of you and her.
You have destroyed my dream place, my dream...

I am scared, helpless, and hopeless.
I know I have lost you completely.
and I have no intention to win you back.
I have lost my confident.

I love you.
And I won't forget you for the rest of my life.
It's just that it has become a history.
And we are never be able to get back together.

I love you.
And I really really do.

June

June, my birthday month...
But I'm not happy...

Too many things happened expectedly and unexpectedly.
What's gone wrong with my life that I used to have?
Honestly, I am in deep depressed.
Alot of why and unsolved matters.

June has passed by quietly.
I am forced to be strong, independent and tough.
Even though I know I am just want to be a girl that still relying on someone else.
But at this very moment, I am forced to grow up.

Good or bad, now it's the turning point.
With too much disappointment and grieve, I eagerly wish to change.
To change to a better me, a better future, and a better life.
I wish I could shine again.

God, I know it is a challenge that u bring to me in my life.
I hope you could still hold my hands and guide me to the brightness.
I hope you do not give up hope on me, lead me until the day I can stand up high.
God bless!

梦一场

有人说，当爱情来临时人会大病一场。
我相信，当爱情结束时也一样，用大病一场来划上句点。
像做梦一样。
梦醒了。。。

1 more day...

Counting down the days...
One more day, we are going to be apart by 4,144 miles.
10 days could change alot of things, i guess.

I wish,
Starting from the day after tomorrow, everyday could be a meaningful day for me.
Starting from the day after tomorrow, it's going to be a brand new start for me.
Starting from the day after tomorrow, my life is going to be filled with only happiness.

Counting down the days...
There's no much time left for us, for me, now...

属于

我坚持的 都值得坚持吗
我所相信的 就是真的吗
如果我敢追求 我就敢拥有吗
而如果 都算了 不要呢

或许吧 或许我永远都不会遇见他
或许吧 或许我太天真了吧

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力


属于风的 那就去飞翔吧
属于海洋的 那就汹涌的
属于我们的爱 该来的 就来吧
为什么 不敢呢 不要呢


那如果不属于我的人，不属于我的世界，
那就放开吗。。。？

I'll Protect U

I think, I saw his ex from someone's FB...
I think, from certain extent, we are look alike.

He treats me like how he treats his ex before, I guess...
He loves her?
Yes, I'm pretty sure he is.
He loves me now?
I'm not sure... But I know it's growing.

I dunno why, I am not angry at all when I saw that photos.
In fact, I feel my heartache.
It's a pain that grows when I imagine his pain when he broke-up with his ex.
I feel his broken heart.
Then, I cried...

That was a moment I really wish to give him a big hug,
To pat his shoulder and tell him, "U did well. U have moved on."

I am not sure if I am good enough for him now.
But I am sure that I'll do my very best to make him feel happiness again.
I'll hold his hands and never let go.
Trust me my dear,
Let me protect u and care about u.

U know wat, I am thanking God that let u to met her before me.
And I believe that's the destiny that brings us together now.
Becos of her, u saw me.
But now, let me to protect u for the rest of life.
I will.

爱情这东西

爱情这东西，
抓得太紧，失去的也更快。
但是放得太松，它也会慢慢消失。
介于紧和松的中间才是完美的刻度。

爱情很美，但我累了。

不哭，不闹。
这次，爱情走得很平静。

闭起双眼，想像着明天早晨，太阳依旧光亮明媚，
我对生活的期望，也许这样也已经足够。

爱情真的很美。
我来过，很努力过。
不后悔，不埋怨。

睡吧！明天的世界将只有快乐。
晚安。

Bounce Back

It's really not everything is possible.
Sometimes, there is something that no matter how hard you try and still you are yet to get it done.

It's really not everything is perfect...
You just can't expect to get 100% everytime in everything you do.

Most of the time, I just couldn't admit that things I couldn't achieve.
And most of the time, I just don't want to admit that I am lose.
It's my ego, I know.

But now, I feel lost when I feel like I just couldn't do it better no matter how desperately I wish I can do it.
I am lose...
It doesn't feels good with this kind of feeling.

Perhaps, fallen is just a reason for you to bounce back.
I'll definitely come back as the best Angeline again.
Jiayou!

一个人也可以很好

当一颗赤热的心被浇熄，
当失望变成了绝望，
当所有的回忆只是幻影，
我选择了一个人生活。

不再去想未来的可能，
不再留恋曾经拥抱的温度，
不再期待电话简讯响起那端的谁，
不再思念，不再担心。

一个人生活也可以很好。
至少，我每天可以吃得好，睡得好。
至少，我可以再次用心地笑。
至少，我不再担心受怕，不再害怕你的谎言。
我，只为我的人生负责。

当一切归零，重新开始。
发誓让自己过得更好。
没有你的世界，我会过得更好。
微笑着，期待每一天的日出，享受着每一天的日落，拥抱着每一天的美好。

曾经的疯狂

曾经的不顾一切，
曾经的义无反顾，
曾经的无怨无悔，
曾经的执着，
曾经的坚定，
曾经的爱。。。

时过境迁，那份赤热的心慢慢冷却。
留下的只剩回忆里的曾经，回忆里的疯狂。
但是心里总有一个属于你的地方，在我们最无畏的岁月里闪着光。

面对你，我已不确定自己的心是否还那么执着。
我不知道是该无悔地付出，还是自私地退缩。
甚至，我开始害怕遇见你，害怕我再见面的时刻。
还爱吗？
我不确定。。。
不爱了吗？
为什么心在某时某刻想起你的时候还在隐隐作痛？
也许现在的我已不是最初的那个我了。

感谢那一段回忆里的疯狂，不管我走了多远都不会遗忘。
那一天一道彩虹划破了我的泪光，
我想， 放手是我最后还爱你的证明。

会过去的

两年了。
坚持了两年，在无数个留着泪水的夜晚和无尽的失望和心碎后，
结束了。

再一次，我踩上了一只到不了幸福之岛的船。
然后，我又再次漂浮在无尽的大海中，继续寻找可以让我依靠的木头。
万幸，我总可以从中抽离，理智地跳入海中，不再留念。

虽然我不断地告诉自己，忘了过去，忘了他，重新出发。
但是，曾经幸福的很幸福，曾经感动的很感动，曾经拥抱过很温暖。
那些是一辈子也不可能会忘记的。
只是，那颗伤痕累累的心，不再为他跳动。
此刻，脑海一偏宁静，没有一丝丝的涟漪。
信念是如此的坚决。

会过去的。
我还是我，坚强勇敢，努力不懈，对未来充满期待的我，不曾改变过。

Relief & Reborn

Hi 2014!
You are being nice to me so far.
I am getting stronger and slowly back to the right path.
A relationship that shouldn't start at the beginning should be ended somewhere.
But how about the broken heart that seems never be mended again?

I am lucky and I am really appreciate it.
The broken heart that I thought will never mend is melt in a feeling we called - friendship love.
And now, it's reborn.
How lucky I am to have everybody beside me.
Every word you say, every care you show are really touching my broken heart.
It's like a mother-hand that do the most beautiful sewing job to put the broken heart together again.

Life is a process.
Everyone has to be experienced something to grow up.
Sometimes we confuse and sometimes we lost.
Luckily, there is always a helping hand that awaits me and guide me back on track again.

My dear all, you are really amazing!
Thanks for being by my side for this hard time, and now I am relief!

Carrying the status "single" is because you are still waiting for the one who is mature enough to know that honesty, commitment and loyalty are the priority, not an option.

Save for the best! Cheers!

To all the hurts you give - Thank You!

Hello my 2014~!
It's a new chapter, just like a new piece of paper, and I am ready to paint my page with all the amazing colors.

This morning, when I wake up, my mind is extremely calm and my thought is extremely clear.
I know exactly how should I do with this miserable relationship, what is the truth behind all the lies.
I know exactly what is the next step.

Luckily, all the tears and sadness and heart-broken have left in 2013.
Nothing is really matter, no one could be bothering me now.
Everything ends in 2013.

The past 2 years, since the day I found myself fall in love with this guy, my life has changed completely.
The proud and ego Angeline has gone.
I never have so much tears and crying in a year. It's just like the tears I could have have for this life has been used up within this 2 years.
I am trying really hard in all the ways to forget you, to accept the fact that I love you and then finally be brave to pursue the love I am thinking of.
All the while I am loving you with all my heart and that's real.
Even though what you have gave doesn't equal to what you will get, but it's the experience that teaches me a lot.
And now, it comes to the end.
I am relief!

I am not blaming anyone or anything.
This is life. Almost everyone is gonna experience this.

Hey, you know what you have missed?
It's a true heart that was once ready to sacrifice anything to protect you and love you.

It's 2014.
To all the hurts you gave, I wanna say "Thank You".
And Halo 2014, I am Angeline again!