I think it is time to say goodbye.
Thanks for the 2 years memories, the sweet one and the sad one.
Tonite, I have made up my mind.
I wanna stop the cheapest love that doesn't mean anything to you.
Let me cry like nobody business tonite.
Let me be the real me again tonite.
After tonite, all the memories of you will be deleted forever.
Goodbye, the one I loved for the past 2 years.
Saturday, August 31, 2013
Friday, August 30, 2013
Give up?
I don't know how to find a word to describe my feelings right now.
My heartache is more painful than I can imagine.
My thought is a mess.
Even though I already be prepared with this outcome mentally.
But when the moment comes, I still couldn't control my emotions.
Chasing someone like you makes me suffering from head to toes, from inner to outer.
My heart is no longer able to hold on anymore pain given from you.
I can't breath...
It's enough!
My heartache is more painful than I can imagine.
My thought is a mess.
Even though I already be prepared with this outcome mentally.
But when the moment comes, I still couldn't control my emotions.
Chasing someone like you makes me suffering from head to toes, from inner to outer.
My heart is no longer able to hold on anymore pain given from you.
I can't breath...
It's enough!
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
一路上有你. 希望你值得
妳知道嗎 愛妳並不容易 還需要很多勇氣
是天意吧 好多話說不出去 就是怕妳負擔不起
妳相信嗎 這一生遇見妳 是上輩子我欠妳的
是天意吧 讓我愛上妳 才又讓妳離我而去
也許輪迴裡早已註定 今生就該我還給妳
一顆心在風雨裡飄來飄去都是為妳
一路上有妳 苦一點也願意 就算是為了分離與我相遇
一路上有妳 痛一點也願意 就算這輩子註定要和妳分離
一路上有妳 苦一點也願意 就算是為了分離與我相遇
一路上有妳 痛一點也願意 就算只能在夢裡擁抱妳
Sunday, August 25, 2013
The Love Force
I am Angeline, a girl who has been living in this world for 27 years.
I met few guys before but never try to chase after someone I love, none at all.
He is the first one and the last I guess.
This is the first time I put aside my proud,
forgetting I am a girl actually,
deciding to pursue a so-called "happiness" which I think it's true.
I totally have no idea how and what to do, where to start...
But I guess,
be honest, be sincere, be open-minded and do whatever you think but never dare to do it before.
Courage + Determination become the love force I am holding right now.
This is the choice I have chosen and there's no regrets.
No matter what the outcome is, I know I have done my best.
All the best!
Angeline, go for the one last strike!
I met few guys before but never try to chase after someone I love, none at all.
He is the first one and the last I guess.
This is the first time I put aside my proud,
forgetting I am a girl actually,
deciding to pursue a so-called "happiness" which I think it's true.
I totally have no idea how and what to do, where to start...
But I guess,
be honest, be sincere, be open-minded and do whatever you think but never dare to do it before.
Courage + Determination become the love force I am holding right now.
This is the choice I have chosen and there's no regrets.
No matter what the outcome is, I know I have done my best.
All the best!
Angeline, go for the one last strike!
Saturday, August 24, 2013
The Choice
It's really a long deep talk last night. Thanks for everyone who presented, shared and guided me who had long lost in somewhere.
I have a clearer picture now.
I have made a decision, even though I have no idea what will it be in the end.
I know exactly that I have only 2 choices left.
1) I give up on him and delete him forever in my heart
2) I chase after him and chase after my happiness
For the first one, I did it all the while for the past 1 year more and I never succeed. It's like impossible for me to delete him forever from my heart my life. I did tried in uncountable ways just to forget him. But it never work. I know, I will not possible to forget him in this life. And if I keep on doing nothing, I will be suffering for the rest of my life.
Since so, I guess I have left only one choice.
The 8 sweetest months in the past that keeps bothering me for the past 1 year and it hurts me so bad whenever I think of it.
But right now, it is already a history. It's just a source when I fallen for this guy. And then, it is a brand new start right now. Because I love this guy so bad, and I have no choice, I have to chase after him regardless he likes me or not, or, he did liked me in the past. It's really doesn't matter right now. The fact is, I LOVE HIM.
"Do something that you won't regret in the end, for doing nothing. The girl that is brave enough to chase after her happiness is the most "handsome" girl out of all..."
"You can do it in your career, why you can't do it in your personal life?"
Thanks guys! I will remember all of this. Fay jie can be so brave to chase after her own happiness, but what have I done?? I shouldn't do nothing!
Angeline, no matter what, go for the one last time...
I have a clearer picture now.
I have made a decision, even though I have no idea what will it be in the end.
I know exactly that I have only 2 choices left.
1) I give up on him and delete him forever in my heart
2) I chase after him and chase after my happiness
For the first one, I did it all the while for the past 1 year more and I never succeed. It's like impossible for me to delete him forever from my heart my life. I did tried in uncountable ways just to forget him. But it never work. I know, I will not possible to forget him in this life. And if I keep on doing nothing, I will be suffering for the rest of my life.
Since so, I guess I have left only one choice.
The 8 sweetest months in the past that keeps bothering me for the past 1 year and it hurts me so bad whenever I think of it.
But right now, it is already a history. It's just a source when I fallen for this guy. And then, it is a brand new start right now. Because I love this guy so bad, and I have no choice, I have to chase after him regardless he likes me or not, or, he did liked me in the past. It's really doesn't matter right now. The fact is, I LOVE HIM.
"Do something that you won't regret in the end, for doing nothing. The girl that is brave enough to chase after her happiness is the most "handsome" girl out of all..."
"You can do it in your career, why you can't do it in your personal life?"
Thanks guys! I will remember all of this. Fay jie can be so brave to chase after her own happiness, but what have I done?? I shouldn't do nothing!
Angeline, no matter what, go for the one last time...
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
Where is your principle?
People change, from time to time, due to the change of the environment of living.
Some people change for survival, some people change for betterment, and so on.
Change is fine, but what have you changed?
Positively or negatively?
I bet, majority of the people would say, "yea, I change for a better me. And I think I am good right now."
No matter what you have changed, do you still remember your original principle that you have way before the external factors changed you?
Talking about principle, everyone knows what we should do what we shouldn't. This has been taught since kindergarten.
Strangely, when we grow up, big enough to survive in this reality world, those we used to know has changed.
So now, you gonna tell me, "this is a cruel world. I have to do this to survive. Everybody is doing that though. Why not?"
This topic could be no right or wrong.
But I am wondering, there are so many people out there in this world and if 90% of the human being behaving like this. What our world will become?
I am sure, it will definitely not a good place to live.
Again, I am not a great one. But I have holding my principle well.
I am changed too following the changed of the world. However, I know that no matter what I will never do anything that's against my original principle.
I loyal to my job and I love it!
When a task given, I know it exactly that I have to do it perfectly, at least there's no regret for me for things I should have done but didn't.
The working environment might have changed, but it doesn't mean that my working attitude has to change too.
Work smart is not asking you to temporarily cover your ass. If you are not finding a right pant, you will be forever finding a leave.
Think twice!
Some people change for survival, some people change for betterment, and so on.
Change is fine, but what have you changed?
Positively or negatively?
I bet, majority of the people would say, "yea, I change for a better me. And I think I am good right now."
No matter what you have changed, do you still remember your original principle that you have way before the external factors changed you?
Talking about principle, everyone knows what we should do what we shouldn't. This has been taught since kindergarten.
Strangely, when we grow up, big enough to survive in this reality world, those we used to know has changed.
So now, you gonna tell me, "this is a cruel world. I have to do this to survive. Everybody is doing that though. Why not?"
This topic could be no right or wrong.
But I am wondering, there are so many people out there in this world and if 90% of the human being behaving like this. What our world will become?
I am sure, it will definitely not a good place to live.
Again, I am not a great one. But I have holding my principle well.
I am changed too following the changed of the world. However, I know that no matter what I will never do anything that's against my original principle.
I loyal to my job and I love it!
When a task given, I know it exactly that I have to do it perfectly, at least there's no regret for me for things I should have done but didn't.
The working environment might have changed, but it doesn't mean that my working attitude has to change too.
Work smart is not asking you to temporarily cover your ass. If you are not finding a right pant, you will be forever finding a leave.
Think twice!
Friday, August 9, 2013
Just another moment when I think of you
It is a hot and lazy afternoon on the second day of a long holidays.
Laying on the bed in my room and playing the songs from my laptop.
I close my eyes,
There's a moment of you appeared on my mind.
The tears that I thought it will never drop again falling gently over my face.
The pillow case is wet.
It's just another moment I am thinking of you again.
How long it has been since the hug that night downstair of my apartment?
How long it has been since the moment you carried me on the beach?
How long it has been since the moment I fell to sleep on your shoulder?
I guess, I shouldn't counting it anymore.
I know we will never get back to those moment again.
Those that were once I struggled for seems to be fine right now.
I am good.
It is just a moment when I think of you.
The tears is not dropping now.
Just let the past staying in the past.
Laying on the bed in my room and playing the songs from my laptop.
I close my eyes,
There's a moment of you appeared on my mind.
The tears that I thought it will never drop again falling gently over my face.
The pillow case is wet.
It's just another moment I am thinking of you again.
How long it has been since the hug that night downstair of my apartment?
How long it has been since the moment you carried me on the beach?
How long it has been since the moment I fell to sleep on your shoulder?
I guess, I shouldn't counting it anymore.
I know we will never get back to those moment again.
Those that were once I struggled for seems to be fine right now.
I am good.
It is just a moment when I think of you.
The tears is not dropping now.
Just let the past staying in the past.
Thursday, August 8, 2013
I am the king of my life
It is a weird feeling when seeing an exactly same story of yours happened on someone else.
It's like watching your own movie, but this time, you are just a viewer and the main actress is someone else.
Seeing her cries, seeing her helpless moment and seeing her lost in the world and still couldn't find her way out.
I think I share her thought and her feelings.
I think I understand her perfectly cos I am seeing her as I am seeing myself!
God is so great.
I think He is giving me a perfect chance to reborn while assisting other to find her way back.
Love is so amazing and yet mysterious.
There's nothing wrong for loving someone and there's nothing right either.
What you have done in a relationship is not about looking for a return or an answer.
It's only about a responsibility you have towards your heart and yourself.
Do whatever thing you think it's right with no regrets.
Who the hell on earth says the it's wrong for a girl to chase after a guy when she knows it perfectly that he is the right one for her?
For me, I won't care what's gonna be said or commented by the others.
Because I know, I am the only one who is responsible for my own life! I don't even needed to report to anybody about my life.
Anyway, I have reborn from the past.
And now it's time to inspire the others.
Life is so beautiful.
To the beautiful life, cheers!
It's like watching your own movie, but this time, you are just a viewer and the main actress is someone else.
Seeing her cries, seeing her helpless moment and seeing her lost in the world and still couldn't find her way out.
I think I share her thought and her feelings.
I think I understand her perfectly cos I am seeing her as I am seeing myself!
God is so great.
I think He is giving me a perfect chance to reborn while assisting other to find her way back.
Love is so amazing and yet mysterious.
There's nothing wrong for loving someone and there's nothing right either.
What you have done in a relationship is not about looking for a return or an answer.
It's only about a responsibility you have towards your heart and yourself.
Do whatever thing you think it's right with no regrets.
Who the hell on earth says the it's wrong for a girl to chase after a guy when she knows it perfectly that he is the right one for her?
For me, I won't care what's gonna be said or commented by the others.
Because I know, I am the only one who is responsible for my own life! I don't even needed to report to anybody about my life.
Anyway, I have reborn from the past.
And now it's time to inspire the others.
Life is so beautiful.
To the beautiful life, cheers!
Sunday, August 4, 2013
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