命运和幸运

命运是一种很奇妙的东西...
往往你以为的却偏偏来不及发生
而当你已放弃, 不奢望的时候,它又悄悄地, 不经意地实现了...

曾经懊恼, 不愿甘心败给了命运
几经挣扎却不得要领...
渐渐地也明白了"不强求"和"放下"
相信失去了才可以再拥有...

害怕失败的过去, 现在也勇敢地面对未来.
如果不曾失败,又怎能得到胜利?

幸福不难, 却难能可贵
珍惜幸福活着的每一天
曾经幸福过, 那也是一种幸运...


致远方的某人, 生日快乐!
致这里坚强快乐的我, 幸福万岁!

不完美命运里的，完美。

命运怎么总是喜欢为人决定一生？
那么的不经意，毫无准备的情况下，
却又偏偏那么美好，心动。

明明以为注定的那个人，却又慢慢渐行渐远。
而另一个人又在最不可能的时间点“蹦”了出来。

告诉自己，不可以轻易地再坠入这个爱情陷阱。
却又不小心，在他弹着吉他，唱着情歌的那霎那间，慢慢沦陷。

看清也明白，今生的命运不会那么平坦，
也已经接受了爱情路上所有的不完美。
可是，那么一个温柔的他，虽然不完美，却又不完美的那么迷人。
而那样的他，这样的我，如何自处？

小小的心灵也小心翼翼地许愿，
如果可以，请告诉我，这样的我也可以拥有这样的幸福。
长长久久，一生一世的幸福。

而他，那样的他，不完美得完美的他。
真心期许，我们正在交错的命运也可以在不完美中完美的延续下去。
就算爱得步步惊心，也愿意用一生的风景来交换一个有你的幸福，
直到永远，永远。

Angeline's Evolution

I am keeping my mind a little bit restless lately...

It's a beginning of another level of life I suppose.

I see myself evolving...

from asking who am I, what is this, and why 

to seeing clearly who I am and want to be.

Though I am still the friendly, lovely, kind but ego and stubborn Angeline as I used to be.

The restless mind is keep discovering, analysing, making decisions and then being determined and responsible for all the decisions made.

Though it's not as smooth as it's planned, but the bitter sweet mistakes are all well-appreciated.

I met a wrong guy, I made a wrong judgement and even I might have ruined a better future due to a wrong decision.

However, all and all of this do not resist me to keep going. I could be just fixing all the mistake to the best I can.

I see courage growing deep within me.

The wrong guy I met I could be just erasing from the friend's list, and perhaps keeping him out of my life.

The wrong judgement I made I could be just open up my heart to accept it once again.

The wrong decision I made I could be just keep going until the end. No one would ever know what's the ending story, as no one could ever tell if this is a wrong decision. It could be right when the timing is right.

And the most important thing is, I started to love myself even more.  

I miss you a little

Is it strange that I think I'm still missing you a little sometimes?
Just out of a sudden, in the middle of the day, someday...
U asked me to move on, and I am doing it every now and then.
I'm really trying very hard, I swear.

I'm not blaming you, neither anyone else.
However, it is a strange feeling growing deep within me...
To me, you are a face who I used to know but it becomes very strange to me right now.
Just like a stranger, a stranger who I loved...

Hey, how are you?
I have finished reading the book and I really wish to tell you how fascinating it is!
Have you finish the Easter Egg Chocolate that we got from a rabbit man that day?
How's work so far? Do you manage to catch up with your study schedule?
Do you still wake up in the middle of the night? I hope you sleep well though...

I miss every single message from you everyday.
I miss you to call me baby. You know you never fail to make me smile.
And I'll always miss the moment, the one last moment when we were saying goodbye,
your paled face...
You know, my tears were already filled my eyes and I was not even able to speak.
And the hug, the heart-breaking hug that I would never forget...
I never thought it was the one last hug...

I wonder why would I still missing you so bad?
Right now...
When I am writing this...
I couldn't help it but the tears just seem to be non-stop dropping.

Hey honey bee,
I am really missing you, just a little I promise.

Rich or Poor, is that a matter?

Just recently, a friend of mine told me that, "Perhaps I am the poorest guy you have ever met"...

I was a bit surprised when he said that cause I never have such a thought about him at all. Never. However, I was more worried that if I had mistakenly done something or said something that made him felt that way.

"Rich or Poor", is that really a matter?

Well, there's a big room of argument about this topic. However, for me, a man's success is not purely depending on how wealthy he is. No one can be forever rich, and therefore no one can be forever poor too. Perhaps, attitude and self-cultivation determine one's success.

At a glance of the current billionaires in the world, and it's not hard to find out that almost everyone of them are not those born with the golden-spoon. Their success today is not by Godsend. They are a group of extraordinary people who are willing to take the risk, time and the extra effort and of course, a flaming heart that never die. However, it's sadly to see that not many second generation actually inherited their parents success, and some of them even ruined their life in drugs and sexual activities.

If I have to be with someone, be it a friend or a life partner, I am more than happy to see him/her to have a strong personality. Someone I can talk to, learn from and share everything with.

There's a lot of things in the world that money can't buy. And therefore, they are the most valuable things. You can't bring your wealth into the graveyard and you only live once. So, why would you let your precious lifetime struggled around with how much money you earned? If you have a better choice to create those valuable memories that you could laugh off even until your last breath?

=)

Like I Never Exist

When I look back, I wonder what is real?
The arms I held, the feelings or the memories?
It seems like someone is living in my mind, so close yet so far away.
Do I really know him?
If I do, why am I feeling so strange, so unfamiliar with the face I used to know?

I was being thrown away, just like how he threw away the sea shell in his hand as soon as he discovered a new one, a more beautiful one.

I am totally out of his life, like I never exist...

Would he ever think of me when he is walking on the road that we used to walk together before?

Would he ever think of me when he passes by the restaurant that we love to go?

Would he ever wonder how am I, where am I at some nights before sleep?

Does he still remember chocolates is my all-time-favourite?

Would he remember my name?

...............


I never exist in his life, like he never does in mine.
It was all just a dream, my dream.
When I open my eyes every morning, and he is gone.
And I start everything all over again...
It's another brand new day.

幸福的瞬间

那悄悄降临的幸福，如奇迹般发生了。
像璀璨的烟花，在寂静的夜空中无肆地绽放着。
很美，很美。

一颗受伤破碎了的心，以为不会再爱上任何人。
却在此刻遇见了奇迹般的烟花。
不知道在什么时候，破碎了的心在你细心的呵护下，慢慢地，一片片还原。
不知道从什么时候开始，你亲切的问候成为了我每天面对人生的勇气。
再困难的挑战，因为有你在，也就不再害怕。

两颗心跨越了整个印度洋，慢慢地靠近。。。

我的2015年，与你，在人群中拥吻，在无数的烟花见证下，梦幻般的开始。
你好似有魔力般，让每一次的相处都充满了幸福，温暖，还有满满的安全感。
蜜糖和巧克力，这世上还有什么比这两个东西的结合更为甜蜜？

那天晚上，你说爱我，你看不见我内心的宇宙已经围绕着整个太阳系翻转了几遍。
但是面对当时的你，我却无从表达我已经爆发的宇宙。欲言又止。
你知道吗？我害怕。害怕这样的幸福正在倒数。
多么希望时间就这样静止，我和你就可以像这样，永远都不要分开。

烟花再美都会陨落。
也许只有这些和你一起，所有我们幸福的瞬间，
在我有生的记忆里才可以变为永恒。

今年的生日，我向天空许一个愿。
如果时光可以倒流，请让我再次遇见你。
如果未来我们已经白发苍苍，请让我再遇见你，不说别的，只想问你一句，你好吗？

擦干眼泪，我要坚强起来。
没有你的保护，我要努力地走完我的人生。
不爱了。。。

Memory is a gift... Hello June!

The Imperfect Life

Since when I have started to accept the imperfection in life.
I'm glad I am mature enough right now to deal with all the imperfections, the failures and the sadness.

People come and go...
The happiest and the sweetest moments are never last forever, I understand.
The affection is just a shapeless thing, the feeling of love and attraction are the fundamental.
Most of the time, it comes without signal, so as when it's gone.

I feel terrible as I am always the first one to fall for and the last one to leave.

He said he would like to find only the right one.
Who's gonna be the right one? How to become the right one?
It seems to be a question without an answer.

I guess I have a sixth sense or something that I think I have predicted things happened recently.
And I guess that's why I live my every moment with him to the fullest.
And that's why the last moment with him before I left was so heart-breaking.
My tears dropped non-stoply along the way to the airport. And it was even worst when the plane had set-off.
I remembered the old lady sitting beside of me was so so dearly and friendly to me. I guess she felt my sadness too.

"Your happiness shouldn't depend on others." He told me that.
Yes, I fully agree and that's why I have done all the stupid things.

Dealing with the imperfections, it's like going through the life path, it happens all the while.
Persistent, strong-minded, optimistic, and a heart that never stop believing.

Hey, thanks for giving me the motivation, to become someone better than who I am right now,
In all aspects.

I hope, the next time when u see me (if we are still going to see each other), I'll be a different person, a better one I hope.

被动状态

非常不喜欢这种被动状态的感觉。
可是事实又一次次地将我推向这个框框里。

也许是我的冲动，我的执着。

不想重蹈覆撤，不愿再次伤害自己。
相信懂得的人会懂。
下定决心，离开被动状态！

平常心

从过往的经历中，我慢慢学会了“平常心”。
不再那么执着于无法掌握，也无法改变的人或事。
秉着一颗平常心，既来之，则安之。

世界之大，不是所有的事都那么尽如人意。
也有很多事一开始也不如预期般美丽，还需要很多的努力去达成它。
勇敢地接受它的不完美。
就算有天它成为了一个遗憾，就让它埋藏在回忆里，成为生命里一个美丽的遗憾。

人的一生真的不是那么完美。
完美的人生也是从一堆的遗憾，无奈和失败中堆砌而成。
只要你尽力了，剩下的就让时间去证明。

也许我也会害怕，有些美好的人和事也在我的生命里倒数。
也许这些过于美好，好到不可思议的人和事其实也不可能一辈子。
那，我想，我努力过，也不遗憾了。

活在当下！

Old Stuff Love

I like old stuff!
Oldies, old movies, old stories, old photos...
I don't think it's kinda outdated or something, in fact I think it's fascinating!

Most of the time, I am attracted by the history behind every old stuff.
It's a story that has undergone for years.
How they was looked like? What they had gone through? What makes them become what they are now?
I find that I am just too excited to find out more, everything.

Most of the time, new is not better than the old one, at least for me it's always true.

Well, you may call me "The Old Folk Angeline"...
I just wanna tell you that, I don't care~ =P

Time will tell...

I believe,
It's the time, not the physical distance could tell everything.

Uncertainty, worry about the future, and a heart afraid of hurt...
I admit, I couldn't concentrate on work today.
I was thinking about someone, something.

Perhaps, I shouldn't think about anything.
Time will show me the right path.

Still, I am a bit emotional today.
I wish he could stay. I just don't want to leave him.
That's my selfish thought and it remains just a dream.

I think I'm falling for someone.
Time will tell if it is true...

Dangerous Love

There's a danger in loving somebody too much...
I should have learnt it since the last painful experience.
The wound on heart that he gave is still fresh.

But, how could I allowing myself to fall in love again?

He is a very charming guy.
I really wish I could believe in every word he said, i really want to trust him with my whole heart and soul.
But I am scared...
I am scared of returning to the grey world again, a place I don't see sunlight and colors of the world.
A place I don't trust love and a place I am losing myself.

I am praying...
I hope the God could hear my prayers.
Release me from all the fears and give me courage, to prove to the one I wish to spend my life with,
to create a new world of happiness with my own hands.

If I can't, then please remove all the memories from my mind.

永恒的幸运

在适合相爱的天气，我和你相遇。
当两棵寂寞的心慢慢地靠近，拥抱着彼此的伤口慢慢地痊愈。
我以为不会再遇见让我心动的人时，上帝却让我遇见了你。

两棵曾经受伤的心，在暧昧中小心地摸索幸福的方向。
坦白和了解融化了冰。
血液里流着一丝丝的甜蜜。
我们都明白这是怎么一回事。
可是这一次，我们都没有了勇气，不敢再轻易的说爱情。
我们不再承诺永远。

爱吧，我们犹豫了。
放开吧，还有很多很多的不舍。
怕只怕爱着爱着会放弃，
有没有爱着爱着就永远的幸运？

The Balance

"物极必反", Chinese's philosophy makes it clear that whatever it is, when it reaches its maximum limits, it will start to turn to the negative side. Just like the "Ying" and the "Yang" that tell exactly how well the world could stay in its harmony, and all of this is because -- The Balance.

Fruits are healthy. However when it is overdosed without having a proper meal, it affects our health.
Exercise is generally good for health too. However, when it is overdosed we might get injured.
Reading seems to be a good habit. However, too much of reading could cause a short-sighted.

There are too many examples to be shown, to prove the importance of balancing in everything we do.

From my past failure love experiences, I have learned something. But to practice well the so-called "Balance" concept, I guess it is still a long way to go.