Death, if it comes one day...

Death, a word that nobody would be interested in.
However, all the living objects in this world are born, grow and die in the end.
It is a natural cycle that everyone has to go through.

Life is so unpredictable.
No one will ever know what he/she will be tomorrow, or even the next minute.

So, do you ever think about death?

I am an optimist.
Just like anybody else, I love my life and I love this world to the most.
I never want to die so early neither I want to live too long when everyone I loved has gone.
However, I always know, finally there is one day I will walk to the end of my life.
If the day comes, I hope I could bring my smiling face until the last breath.
Just like the shooting star, it brings the greatest and wonderful sparks before it clashes on the ground.
I hope I could leave only the happiness to everyone I loved.
And there is no sadness or tears, but only the peace.
I hope the songs like "Amazing Grace" or "I'm Already There" or even "When You Believe" are playing all around in the hall with the beautiful white color roses sprinkled all over the floor.

And then, I hope I could be brought to the sea, the place I loved the most and the place I would like to stay for the rest of the days.

I know I shouldn't think too much of death. But if the day comes, I hope I am just like a shooting star that everyone will only remember my sparks that is used to be sparked up in those days.

Life is so beautiful to me, yes it always is.
Everyday, when I am still alive, I wish i could fulfill all my dreams one by one.
And then, I will leave with no regrets.

If

If a picture paints a thousand words,
Then why can't I paint you?
The words will never show the you I've come to know.

If a face could launch a thousand ships,
then where am I to go?
There's no one home but you,
you're all that's left me too.

And when my love for life is running dry,
you come and pour yourself on me.
If a man could be two places at one time,
I'd be with you.
Tomorrow and today, beside you all the way.

If the world should stop revolving spinning slowly down to die,
I'd spend the end with you.

And when the world was through,
Then one by one the stars would all go out,
Then you and I would simply fly away

等等

让眼泪等一等，
让失望等一等，
让孤单等一等。。。
也许明天，幸福正悄悄降临。

人生多么奇妙。
你永远不会猜到下一个转角你将遇见谁。

爱是个奇迹。
曾经的幸福浪漫并非代表永恒。
可谁又会猜到生命里的那个他就在瞬间的那一刻出现了。

爱与幸福不是一把尺，也不是一个称。
你永远无法衡量长短，轻重。
唯一的测量器是那颗真心，那个不计付出的真心。

我看着你走过了灰暗，然后遇见了太阳。
从此幸福美满。
我想，我已经可以想像，当钟声响起，你穿着白纱走进来的那一刻。
我看见了天使！

*献给我生命里非常重要的你。2014年1月26日，期待着。。。

Just let me disappear

Perhaps, disappear is the last and the best choice I have right now.

Loving you with all my heart and thought, for more than a year, hoping that you could feel it.
But now it seems so stupid to me.
The fact is, you never care about it.

There was once you make me feel like I am the special one.
But now, you show me that I am just another girl who has fallen for you.
All the things you have done, all the cares you have showed which were once my whole happiness.
But now, what's left?
It's only a scar in my heart that would never be cured.

Do you ever know that the most terrible thing is when there's no more tears in the eyes and yet the heartache is getting worst each and every day?
Can you imagine how one can live without a soul?
Do you know that I am starting to hate myself when I become so stupid in front of you and I just can't help it?

I just wanna get out from all this, get out of your life like we never met.
Let me be the selfish one this time.
Let me disappear.
Until the day I am Angeline again.

A Plan

Since when, my world is not as beautiful as it was.
And I, become someone that I do not know before.
I lost myself in every way.

Some time long time ago, there's a thought to go on a journey of my own...
Leaving the country that I have been brought up and living for more than 20 years..
Exploring a brand new place, environment, people... everything.
The thought is never be so strong like it is right now.

I wanna runaway from all the things happened to me so far...
Or perhaps a person that I always wanted to forget.
I wanna live a brand new life without him..
I wanna learn to smile again.

The plan is in planning now.
I hope it could be finalised real soon.
Until then, I will pack my stuff and just go without taking along anything about me and him.

Reserve for Only The Best

兜兜转转，迂回在不肯放弃的回忆里。
用尽了全力，想把回忆延续，变成永恒。
猛然发现，这一切只是自己的执着。
现实并不如想象中完美。
事实有如锋利的刀把心划破。

值得吗？

醒了。
不想再继续。
不想再眷恋。

放开吧，也许幸福就在不远处。
从新来过，给自己一次幸福的机会。
把最好的自己留给值得守护的人。
也许也只有值得的那个人才应该拥有我想给的全部幸福。

崇拜你

也许吧，
就是喜欢崇拜你，
享受着崇拜你的过程。
虽然有时很幸福，有时也很失落。
与其说爱，还不如崇拜你。
那样，不管结局如何，也许我也还能潇洒地走开。

或许吧，
心里还是默默地祈祷，
期待被你崇拜的那一天。
虽然已渐渐习惯了你突然的热情，突然的冷漠。
虽然想被你崇拜是那么遥不可及，
可是崇拜你的过程，我还是乐在其中，不后悔。