Missing U No More

I know I shouldn't counting anymore...
The useless counting...

But hey, guess what, just out of sudden I think of you and where we started.
It's about a year since then till now,
Things changed.
I miss you...

Let it go...
Time will get me through.
I'll be alright then.

爱。转角

一个转角，谁知道还会遇见谁。
好的，不好的，也许已经命中注定。

一个转角，一个希望。
曾经被破碎的梦，现在的我将它再次一片片缝合，
期待下一个懂得欣赏，把他捧在手心的人。

过去的点点滴滴，所有的悲伤和快乐，我选择将它遗留在上一个转角。
不带任何的情绪，思念和回忆。

Terry 说：“女人啊，爱情不是你的全部。”

从那一天，当你离开了，
也许我的心也自由了。
很努力地，一步步，走向真正属于我的世界。

今天，当我抬头仰望天空，
天空没有了你的脸，
但我却看见了属于我的梦想，我的自由，我的生活的意义。

拒绝悲伤。
Angeline 一直都是勇敢的，快乐的。
加油！

3 months and I'm still good and sound

There's so many things in my mind and I wish to share here...

Where should I start?

3 months already, I am still alive, just good and sound. 

Slowly, day after day, I am developing a new target of life.

My sky has finally turned blue and clear. 

Everything happens around seems to be so motivated to me.

Still, I do missing you sometimes, especially when some of the common scenes and words that we had have before.

But now, I treat all of this a memory, just a memory that I will smile whenever I think of it.

I know I'll never forget you, but who the hell on earth doesn't had this?

I have accepted the cruel reality.

Recently, I read the blog from Terry, a guy who is traveling around the world with his ukulele. He is a Taiwanese.

His very inspiring words really touches me a lot.

I love his courage, his independency and nuttiness. And I really wish to travel alone like him like nobody business.

I am always waiting for a companion, a travel companion, a life companion...

But then I realise that, if you are keep waiting for someone to accomplish your dreams together, your dreams will remain just a dream. Nothing would happen in the end. 

So, if this is the fact that you gotta be all alone, why not just take up the challenge and prove to the world that you will be fine no matter how far you travel.

And what's more, the beautiful world is all under your feets, and one by one awaiting to be discovered.

Isn't it sounds great?

I've no idea what will happen in the future,

and I know exactly that everything is possible.

So when I am still able to do whatever I can, and I shouldn't just wait for someone who could never give you an answer or certainty.

It's time to live for myself, just all for my own.

I'm Back!

I thought I'll never blog again.

Time passes by...
History remains history.
Sun is still coming out everyday.
Me is still me.

The only difference is...
You are no longer the priority.
I don't greet you morning and night anymore.
You are no longer the first and the last thing I m thinking about every day and night.
You are no longer my only source of happiness.

Now,
I wake up everyday with a reason, a reason that is nothing to deal with you.
I dun wait for your messages and calls.
I eat properly, sleep nicely, and live my life happily.
My future plan is a plan without you.
I dream about future without your existence.

It seems like there's nothing on earth could hurt me anymore.
The wound that you gave me could never hurt me again.

Even though I do missing u once in a blue moon,
but it makes me understand even clearer that I'll never fall in love with you again.

I quit from your life, so that I could own my own.
I refuse to stay in your world, because I know I could find somewhere that belongs to me.
I reject the sadness, because I believe I could smile again.

I Love You, and I Really Really Do

3 weeks already...
27th June, you told me that it's better for us to be friend.
You said I am a good girl and I can find someone else better easily.
You said you doesn't fall in love with the girl that everyone else is guessing lately.
You said you are just not ready to have any commitment in a relationship.

2 years ago...
You makes me fall in love with you completely.
You makes me feel the love and happiness again that I've lost it long time ago.
You makes me willing to sacrify everything, yes everything to love you.

I love you.
I really really do.
How am I going to forget it just like that?
How am I going to pretend like you never exist?

I don't care how people judge you, how people comment about you.
I trust you with my eyes and heart.
I just love everything about you, the good and the bad.

You said I am too dreamy.
You said I have watched too many dramas and movies.
But,
Do you know that it is the true response from someone who is truly falling in love?

3 weeks already...
I am pretending I am good in front of everybody including you.
I am forcing myself to face the fact that we are friend now.

But whenever I am holding my phone, I wish to hear from you.
I wish to know that you are fine, you have eaten and you are happy.
I wish to take care of you like before.
But I have no right to do so...
I am nobody, to you.

New Zealand was once my dream.
But now, whenever I think of planning my itinerary for my NZ trip, I will think of you and her.
You have destroyed my dream place, my dream...

I am scared, helpless, and hopeless.
I know I have lost you completely.
and I have no intention to win you back.
I have lost my confident.

I love you.
And I won't forget you for the rest of my life.
It's just that it has become a history.
And we are never be able to get back together.

I love you.
And I really really do.

June

June, my birthday month...
But I'm not happy...

Too many things happened expectedly and unexpectedly.
What's gone wrong with my life that I used to have?
Honestly, I am in deep depressed.
Alot of why and unsolved matters.

June has passed by quietly.
I am forced to be strong, independent and tough.
Even though I know I am just want to be a girl that still relying on someone else.
But at this very moment, I am forced to grow up.

Good or bad, now it's the turning point.
With too much disappointment and grieve, I eagerly wish to change.
To change to a better me, a better future, and a better life.
I wish I could shine again.

God, I know it is a challenge that u bring to me in my life.
I hope you could still hold my hands and guide me to the brightness.
I hope you do not give up hope on me, lead me until the day I can stand up high.
God bless!

梦一场

有人说，当爱情来临时人会大病一场。
我相信，当爱情结束时也一样，用大病一场来划上句点。
像做梦一样。
梦醒了。。。