最后一次

你从来都不知道什么时候会是最后一次。
也许昨天还好好的恋人，今天却已经成了陌路人。
也许昨天还畅谈未来，憧憬未来的美好，今天却将一切幻灭。

有些事，有些人，错过了就一辈子。
就算昨天的回忆再美好，当一切结束时将归零。

从来我都不愿和谁争抢任何的事物。
不强求，不勉强。

愿你安好。

Desire or Need?

I have been thinking it,
all the time...
What do people want?
Or precisely, do they know what they really want and need?

Desire, temptation and lust.
It's just an emotion, shapeless, tasteless and meaningless.
I have seen girls never stop dating the new guys. (Internet has made everything so easy and convenient.)
And I have seen guys never stop sleeping around with the new girls.

What happened to the world?

Yeah, you probably would told me that I'm a "little girl" who knows nothing! However, you probably also have forgotten, forgotten the real you, the purest you who are just wishing true love would happen one day soon.

Well I believe in true love, it's just not the true love that we have been taught in the movies.

Well hey you, just bring back the real you. Makes love a need, not a desire.

Believe me as you believe in happiness is real

Relationship,
between friends, colleagues, couples and family,
is one of the greatest and powerful, yet complicated and complex gift in this world.

I call it "a gift" as I see its beauty despite sometimes it has been twisted and it is the cause of the heartaches.
It somehow could be as simple as it supposes to be.
And all involves are the time, efforts and the indestructible trust.

A true friend is always reachable no matter how far or how long you have not contacted each other.
A true love is always ready to give in anything and everything just to make sure that you will be alright.
And of course the family, those who will never leave you behind and always welcome you at a place we called it home.

So hey,

I am not gonna change you, but I wanna let you to see the most beautiful thing in this world is happening right now, in front of you.
And I hope you to feel it and let the love fills up those emptiness in your heart.
All and all, I just wanna to see you smile, the happiness smile. =)

Carpe Diem • 活在当下

Carpe Diem, living the moment.

活在当下，多么的潇洒，多么的自由。
而我，不知道从什么时候开始已经变得不再那么勇敢。
当生命里在乎的事，在乎的人，渐渐地走远。
而我，连想抓住的资格都没有。
一次，两次，三次。。。
每一次都告诉自己，那是最后一次了。

也许，因为如此，曾经勇敢的心已经在淌血，慢慢的变得不再勇敢。
也许命运玩弄了我。。。
也许幸运之神遗忘了我。。。

而我，只剩下我。
安慰鼓励着受伤的心，告诉自己，活在当下就已足够。
只要那时的自己快乐着，其他已经不再重要。

Dilemma, but that's okay

At some point of life, I wonder what love is?
A companionship?
A touch that makes your heart beats faster?
Or a lot a lot of touching and sweet memories?

I am confused, with the decision to stay or leave.
Is that because I could never able to give in it all again?
Or I am just phobia of the heartache?

But why, he still makes him the first thing I am thinking of every morning?
Why am I cared so much about him?
Why the time spent with him is always a good time even though sometimes we are just doing nothing?

Someday, one day, I will make a decision,
When my heart is ready.

If this is where we meant to be...

If...
Every sunrise is meant for the sunset,
Every blossom is meant for the wither and fall,
And the relationship starts is meant for the breaks,

Then,
I would never be chasing the sunrise, amazed by the blossom, and putting my everything on a man.

Everything starts with a reason, and it ends with a reason too. Though it could be the saddest thing in the world, we have learned to accept the truth and the facts. Wipe up your tears and be ready for those that meant for an end.

If this is the one last time, I hope it is a wonderful memory that we could keep till the day when we think of each other, there will be only a smile on our face. In a week time, I am counting it down...

I like you, but...

I meet a French charming guy lately...
I am attracted by his beautiful eyes, lovely smile, and those tiny little things he concerned.
He is very detailed, caring, helpful, honest and loving.
I like to be with him.
In his arm, I find secured.

I was warned by a friend about how French tackle girls and they seem to be never serious about a relationship.
I know it's definitely not all French are the same.
Deep inside my heart, I hope he would be the different one.

Perhaps I am a girl who has lost confident about relationship. (after the terrible depression)
3 months gone, and I am starting to lose confident in him.
I am thankful for his honesty by telling me that he is not looking for a committed relationship at the moment. (though I still hope that we could slowly develop one, not now but in the future, one day...)

However,
I see it clearly that I could never meet his standards, a girlfriend standard.
I am not sexy, not fun, and definitely not strong enough to tolerate the consequences due to his charming.
Rather, I choose to stay as who I am.
The normal one, stubborn, ego, playful but quiet at the same time.

I like him.
But I choose to love myself more.
I don't want to become a cheap girl. I have my pride and I am living it for the past 20 over years.
I have my vision towards my future, and my future family. I want to become who I want to be and I definitely do not want it to be interrupted.
Though it might mean a give up on him right now.

Mr. Tea, I like you and all the time we spend together.
It's a memory between you and me that I will cherish it forever.
But for now, I really want to love myself more.
I seriously don't want to be one of your selections.
After the terrible experiences in the past, I guess, this is the best choice.
We are friends.
And nothing more than this.