An Undelivered Gift - for him

This is Mr. Potato Head in The Amazing Spiderman series. A gift that I have bought form HK Disneyland shop and I wish to send it to the owner.

Hopefully I still have this chance to pass this to him. But until now, it is still remained as an undelivered gift. =(

Inspire and Be Inspired

Inspire others and being inspired.

I never thought I could be good enough to inspire other people, not even once. 

I always know that I am not good enough and that's why i always strive for the best I can.

And that's why I like to challenge myself.

Honestly, I was totally touched when my outward bound camp instructor (a nice guy from New Zealand) saying in front of everybody that I am the one who reminded him the true meaning of his job. 

He said, "perhaps I have too used to all the training programs I have for the participants and eventually I have forgotten the very important meaning behind every activities and every tasks given. Angeline has brought me to think it over again and suddenly, I find it back everything I used to remember last time. Thanks for making my day!" 

He smile at me and pat my shoulder. My eyes are filled with tears. I keep telling myself that I'll never cry in front of so many people. Luckily I didn't.

Seriously, I am very happy when I hear him saying this. He actually brings me back those confident that I used to have those days. He reminds me who I am those days.

As I have said, I really dislike the me right now...

A girl who is living her life surrounding a guy who she thinks is very important to her. Eventually, she lost herself. She forgets how proud she used to be, how confidents she is towards those who denies her. And now, she has putting herself so low in front of the guy she thinks she likes the most. But she gets in the end? Nothing. Not even a sympathy from this guy.

Boyd, my outward bound camp instructor, has shown me the girl I suppose to be. Yeap, a pround and confident girl like me, who never care about other people's perception towards me. I just don't care. A girl like me, I have no idea how and why I fall for this guy and it seems like never stop until this moment.

Should I say he is the lucky one? 

I think he even never knew that.

Well, my heart is getting tired with the scars. This time, I really wish I can walk away from him, from all this happiest memories that he has created for me. 

I wish I can do it and find back the real me, be the real me.

God bless!

全世界，我最喜欢你 - In this world, I like you the most!

Hey you!
Do you know that... In this world, this life, I like you the most!
I like you more than anything.
I like you just like I like myself.
I like your good and the bad.
I like your everything.

Basically, I like you because your existence completed my life.

Hey you...
Do you know that... Same date today a year ago, we were planning our first trip to a beautiful island that I never been before.
This is the best memories which I cherish the most.
I still can remember everything, every moment we had together on the island.
Even until now, those sweetest memories still keep replaying in my mind that makes me missing you more.
There were so many times I wanna hug you tightly and tell you my feelings.
But I didn't... And I am regret now.

Hey you...
Do you know that... I think there's no barriers between us because I like you from the bottom of my heart.
I like you as the person who you are...
You are so perfect to me.
Perhaps, I am not good enough for you.

Hey you...
Do you know that... I am currently doing something foolish, something that I never thought I will do it,
something that shouldn't be done by a girl.
I, just wanna love you without regrets, without asking the returns from you (even though it is a very difficult part and it makes my tears never stop dropping)...
As long as I know, you are safe, happy, healthy and even in love with somebody...
I am gonna be good.
Even though I might not getting ready yet to face the truth that you gonna marry someone someday...

Hey you...
I am not sure but, if, if only if, you were once fallen in love with me, even it's just a little,
please...
Please tell me.
Please show me.
Please, give me a reason to come closer to you, to love you more...

I like you to the most.
Tell me if you feel it, know it...

突然之间

Hey...
你知道吗？
此刻的我正在前往热浪岛的路上。
我看见了满天星斗，
好多好多，好美好美。

Hey...

还记得吗？

那天晚上，在刁曼岛的沙滩上，

同样的星空，同样的满天星斗，

我，好想念你。

此刻的我，为了你，为了我的梦想，

我会努力。

你的鼓励，哪怕只是那浅浅的话语，

却已让我信心满满。

对你的喜欢，对你的爱，

说真的，一直一直都没有减少。

无法停止，无法放弃。

不能说出口的爱，不能给予的关怀，

默默的在我心里隐藏着。

也许真的也不会有被你发现的那一天。

所以，我豁然开朗了。

我学会了大爱。

你的幸福，你的快乐，

所以，我也幸福了，快乐了。。。

笔于 2013年4月16日，11.38pm

Be the best of me

What an unstoppable working marathon started since November last year.
And finally, it comes to an end (for the time being... At least I still can rest and recover for a month or two).
I am coming back now! Officially!

Well, looking at the schedule for 2013... Still, the marathon is expected to be continuing endlessly... For personal and working reasons.

March - MIFF 2013
           - Indonesia business trip
           - China business trip
April - Getting an OW Diving License
May - Company Hong Kong Outbound Camp
        - The first diving trip (still in planning)
June - Bali Trip
Sept - SEAFIE 2013
Nov - Taiwan Trip
Dec - Sabah Trip

Alright, that's how I end my 2013. Anyway, the tight schedule has actually filled my empty heart and mind that pushes me to move forward without looking back.

A little promise and target for this year...
Be the best of me in everything...
Love myself a little bit more...
Cheers~

接受

又想起《爱很简单》和《我愿意》这两首歌。
想起了《单身男女》里面的抉择。
想起了曾经发生在我身上的两个故事。。。

 一个聪明浪漫，
一个温暖贴心。 

曾经，我以为放弃了聪明浪漫，
选择了温暖贴心，人生从此幸福美满。

放弃聪明浪漫我从来都不后悔。
选择了温暖贴心，我一直心存感激。
虽然，到了最后，
不论是聪明浪漫，
还是温暖贴心，
我们都走上了一条不归路。。。 

时光无法倒流也不曾为谁停止。
过去了终究过去了。
现在虽然还是一个我，
虽然还是孤单， 虽然还是彷徨，
曾经那一份深深的爱，深深的体会，
那一个曾经很幸福的心，很幸福。
不需要谁的怜悯，
不需要谁的施舍，
该来的就应该让它发生。
是你的若干年后还是你的。

不勉强了。
不挂念了。
不哭了。 

终于，
在今天，在此时，
我接受了。

如果上天看见了今天那么勇敢的我，
请，
拍拍我的头，告诉我，“做的很好！”
那么，
我也就不再害怕，不再遗憾。



 

转捩点

人，
往往徘徊于交叉口，
 等待着一个机会，一次的重生，
等待着人生中的那个点 － 转捩点。