3 weeks already...
27th June, you told me that it's better for us to be friend.
You said I am a good girl and I can find someone else better easily.
You said you doesn't fall in love with the girl that everyone else is guessing lately.
You said you are just not ready to have any commitment in a relationship.
2 years ago...
You makes me fall in love with you completely.
You makes me feel the love and happiness again that I've lost it long time ago.
You makes me willing to sacrify everything, yes everything to love you.
I love you.
I really really do.
How am I going to forget it just like that?
How am I going to pretend like you never exist?
I don't care how people judge you, how people comment about you.
I trust you with my eyes and heart.
I just love everything about you, the good and the bad.
You said I am too dreamy.
You said I have watched too many dramas and movies.
But,
Do you know that it is the true response from someone who is truly falling in love?
3 weeks already...
I am pretending I am good in front of everybody including you.
I am forcing myself to face the fact that we are friend now.
But whenever I am holding my phone, I wish to hear from you.
I wish to know that you are fine, you have eaten and you are happy.
I wish to take care of you like before.
But I have no right to do so...
I am nobody, to you.
New Zealand was once my dream.
But now, whenever I think of planning my itinerary for my NZ trip, I will think of you and her.
You have destroyed my dream place, my dream...
I am scared, helpless, and hopeless.
I know I have lost you completely.
and I have no intention to win you back.
I have lost my confident.
I love you.
And I won't forget you for the rest of my life.
It's just that it has become a history.
And we are never be able to get back together.
I love you.
And I really really do.
