放手是最后的温柔

从没有想过是这样，从和你牵手的那一刻，没有想过要放开。

我们的爱情没能经得起考验，只能和你共甜蜜，不能和你共苦涩。

我看得见你的悲伤，也感受到自己的无奈。你想放弃了。

即便多么的不愿意，多么的不舍，我还是会放开你。这是我最后爱你的方式。

为来不及的甜蜜，来不及的承诺，与来不及的千言万语，........................ 不勉强了。

快乐是自己给的

长大后渐渐发现，快乐是自己给的。

你已经失去撒娇耍赖的权利。没有人可以或应该为你的怪脾气买单。不会再有人无条件的宠溺你。

台湾艺人黄鸿升的突然离世让我好害怕所有来不及完成的事，来不及说的话。纵使如此，也许还是有些事，有些话不能完成，不能说满。

没有人愿意或有义务去聆听，感受，与了解你的真正内心世界，你的真正为人。

纵使没有人了解你，纵使你永远都只能是一个人，快乐不应该缺席。快乐是自己给的。

从心出发！加油

走到尽头

坦白说，我也不清楚自己的忧郁是否已经演变成一种病态。
当幸福降临的时候，我觉得我是全世界最幸运的人。
当幸福离去的时候，我就像是再度跌入深渊般的惶恐和无助。
当伤心和绝望覆盖了我的灵魂，是否还有一处的纯洁平和？

如果生命走到了尽头，是否所有的心痛就可以结束？
如果生命已经走到尽头，我想我唯一还牵挂的是我永远放不下的父母。
除此，也没有什么好留恋了吧……

我不想让父母失望。
不想被人遗忘。
更不想再让苦痛践踏我的自尊和骄傲。

可否带我离开，从此不再悲伤？

Start It All Over Again

胡闹够了，是时候放开了吧……
抓得再紧，也无法抓着一个已经即将远去的身影。
没有为什么，也没有如果。
有些事，有些人，就是那么自然的发生，那么自然的离开。

也许我这一生本来就不该拥有谁。
命运教会了我独立，教会了我孤独。
上天安排了所有美好的事物环绕着我，却忘了安排一个可以和我分享喜悦的灵魂。

即便我再挣扎，再不服，
一次次努力后的结果，一次次地伤害着我。
我已经偏体凌伤，再也承受不住那一根压倒骆驼的稻草。

胡闹过后是一片的宁静。
彻底失望过后是一片的透彻。
不哭，不闹。
让我静静地走开。

Time to move on

So near yet so far...
It’s more than a physical distance that you could imagine.
Maybe, it’s time to move on.

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很想輕撫你 所以避開你
寧願用距離 去令你好奇
迴避過眼神 先偷偷喘氣
吩咐手臂 放在原地
傳聞浪漫太快 愛戀都走得快
才會 遲遲未步向你 說一世愛護你

情太過洶湧像深海 而我卻會忍耐
但求來日你醒過來
這份情像翅膀打開
還沒有相擁別意外 神教會我等待
待情流像細水 才去承諾你
拿一生兌換愛
很心急擁抱 所以在禱告
求甜蜜以前 帶著你慢步
遊歷過旅途 等一天終老
生老病死 一起細數
原來慢慢靠近 更珍惜這一吻
而我 停留是為了你 要給予你護蔭
情太過洶湧像深海 而我卻會忍耐
但求來日你醒過來
這份情像翅膀打開
還沒有相戀別意外 神教會我等待
待情流像細水 才去承諾你
拿一生兌換愛
能為愛戀學習按奈 情信寄進心內
但求能學會倚靠神
愛被馴服過更精采
連地老天荒亦不更改 時間永遠等待
等你情願那天 才去承諾你
無止境那份愛
我用沉默叫醒愛情 你用期待做你反應
繼續行近直至開始愛

How about start making plan for yourself and only yourself?

Maybe I am too dependent sometimes.
Maybe I’m always making plan around something or someone.
Maybe it’s time to make plan for myself,
Without worrying too much about anything or anyone.
Maybe I should go out and have fun, forget about the responsibility, work and status.
Like there is no tomorrow.

It’s love, again?

It’s been a long while to have this feeling again...
Something sweet and excited.

This weekend just started in the most wonderful way it could be.
Nothing was expected.
A regular Friday night filled up with lots of love.
My little heart moved,
My world spinned,
A little explosion happened in my mind,
And i was secretly hoping that the night could last a bit longer...

So gentle, so sweet.
Every touch, every time when you looked at me,
I guess everything would not be the same anymore.

十年后的句点

总会有某个夜晚特别的感触。

总是有某个时刻特别的不舍。

总是要到临别时才发现很多来不及的感谢。

十年的风雨，十年的回忆，总有你们和我。

一起吃苦，一起奋斗，一起流泪，一起欢笑。

成长的坎坷，总有你们和我。

多么欣慰，在人生的某段旅程能和你们一起度过。

献给过去十年和我一起成长的像家人的朋友们。

My ideal man

Time after time, I realize that the criteria in my heart of choosing a right man has changed. Appearence is not priority, achievement in life is just complementary, and personality is somewhat important but not everything.

What really matter now is, a lovely smile, a heart that only loyal to you, and a will of doing anything just for you.

A good looking guy if he doesn’t belongs to you, and he will never be.
A mature successful man, if he never know loyalty, he never belong to you.
And the nicest guy in the world, if he never loves you, he never belongs to you.

That is the cruel facts. And we just have to learn to realize it.

If I ever met a guy who’s treating me like there’s no one else in the world, I will never let him go.

For the happiness in life, I have to keep going. I will never give up.

One day and everything will be alright

Something puzzled me...

A weird version of me who i never encounter before.

What is that making me cry every time we go apart?

My feelings are confused...

Is that a yes or no? 

I like your caring and thoughtful mind, taking care of me like a true queen.

I like your "Queen Service Plan" the most! Where you surprise me every time you could. 

Being with you seems to be so fun, always. 

It's like 2 silly persons wandering around the world, making fools around.

I wanna know what are all these mean to you and me.

And yet, I am not desperately to find it out.

Enjoying every moment and memory with you that soon will lead us to where we suppose to be, 

I believe.

A little distance yet the hearts are so close.

A little blurry yet the mind is so clear.

A little fear yet the will to hold our hands is so strong.

One day, everything will fall into place. 

Until then, you will always find a place in my heart, my mind and my soul. 

Every day, every minute and every second.

Love will lead you the way

"Love will lead you the way", inspired by a friend of mine.

Fear of losing, fear of being hurt again and fear of uncertainty.
What should I do?

I am tired of keeping the hopes,
tired of pursuing someone who will break me in the end,
tired of being just a toy.
Can I love again?


Love should be easy, happy and affirmation.

Fear no more, love will lead you the way.

A letter for Alex

Dear Alex,

How lucky I am to meet you. You are more than perfection to me. You impressed me with your charming smile and intelligence since our first date and every now and then. Talking to you is always a pleasure and I'm completely addicted to your humurous and cares.

I came from a heart-broken relationship that's full of lies and infidelity. And your honesty and sincerity, always taking care of me and make me a princess of yours, make you a Unicorn for me! The rarest species that I could find on this planet. In front of you, I feel so relax and relief. I never be so me in front of any other people but you bring out the real me and still accept me for who I am.

You never stop showering me your love and that moves me. Love should be easy, we said that before. Love should be worry-free, no hesitation, and no mind game. Communication is the key. I am glad I experience this journey with you.

That night, we both burst in tears. That was my first ever time seeing a guy cried in front of me. I guess we both know how much we appreciate each other. I wish we could have more time, to let me burying in your arms, kissing you over and over again. And then, I am the luckiest person in this world.

It's time to move on. Hey you know what, you will always be my greatest memories.

PS: I love you, my honey bee. xoxo

Tell me that's LOVE

What afraid me the most lately is...
I could never feel love again anymore.

Been single for a while.
Passionately and hopefully to finally meet the Mr. Right.

Options are always there, but would there be someone fits me well?

What I am afraid of is...
Nothing lasts, not even a longer while.

When feeling fades, time goes by,
will love still exists?

I love you, you love her, and she loves someone else.
Is there ever an equation where 0.5 + 0.5 = 1 ?

I am not rushing for any relationship, not a marriage, not even a family yet.
I am wishing a right guy, a true love and a perfect timing.

I need a promise that never break,
no matter what, no matter how.


Love me as I worth all of your affections and cares.
Take me as who I may.
And kiss me and hug me endlessly as tomorrow will never come.

A man with story

I met a French guy last weekend.
It was a chilling and cloudy Saturday morning...

Over the brunch, he told me a story of him and his girlfriend.
He said, " I lost my girlfriend."
I thought he was broken up with his girlfriend lately. I thought this was what he wanted to bring out to me.
And then he continued, " She died few weeks ago due to cancer."

To me, from the first impression of him, he was like an ordinary playboy style young guy.
But from the way he told the saddest story, and the way he treated his girlfriend and how he came out from the ordinary French playboy to a more responsible and caring sweetheart,
honestly I am impressed.
And at the same time i felt terribly sorry for him and his girlfriend. They were meant for each other and yet they didn't make it to the last.

I was more than once questioning myself about love.
I was almost dropped the faith in love and stopped believing.
But what love is, to him, he made his own perfect love story.
It did not meant that they don't fight, he don't cheat.
But the loving heart that put them back together again and again,
and both they grown.

Their love story is fascinating.
His positive attitude after the death of his girlfriend is just amazing.

For a really long while I was drowned into the sadness of lost.
And he smiled to me, pat my head and said, "I'm okay."

That Saturday afternoon, I was really sad.
However, it was a memorable Saturday afternoon.
I learned to be tougher.
I learned to dance in the rain.

That Saturday afternoon, I met this young charming French guy - Adrian.
A man with a fascinating story.

This is love, for sure

There are a lot of time I am questioning myself,
What is love?

Years after years, after all the people I met,
after all the experiences I have been go through...
It becomes clearer and clearer to me.
I know, there's always him, in my mind and in my heart.
And it's only him, the one who makes my heart skips a beat everytime we meet.
Nobody else.

Only him, who could bring me the most happiness I could never imagine.
Only be with him, I feel the safest.
And only to him, I could be just myself, telling him whatever it comes in my mind.

I love him, very very much.
Sadly, life doesn't always granted you what you want the most.
And I accept the fact the way it is.

Thank you T for showing me what the love is.
And I'll be loving you every single day till forever and ever.

I Still Believe

5 months gone...
Again, time is flashing really fast.

I start over my new life,
a new life without him.
I start to meet new people, going out and doing stuff.
And everytime I test my feeling if it's real.
And everytime it fails me. The feeling, the heart beat, it just never happen again anymore...

I asked myself if there's something wrong about me?

And I dig in and dig in to find the truth and realise...
Except being more rationale, nothing else has changed me.
It's just the one, the right one is never appear again since then.

Aside the age I am carrying, I know it completely who are the one I am searching for.
The only one I am willing to risk everything again, just for him.
The only one that put me on the ride of the roller coaster again with all the bitter sweet moments.
And the only one whose hugs and kisses could melt my heart uncontrollably.

Even so...
I still believe.
Believing the fate and destiny will finally bring him to me.

Until then, I will be waiting patiently over here,
and dreaming...

LOST

How do I conclude what was happened last night?
All the coincidences, the familiar face, the familiar hug and touch.
What was it?

I am confused.
A feeling that I couldn't even tell what is it.
It's a totally complicated.

Do I still care about him?
Yes I do.

Do I still want to go a bit further again towards him?
I guess no.

Do I miss him?
Yes, very much.

That's enough. I am completely lost.

不认输

六月，夏天，风和海的日子，
还有我的31岁。。。

精彩的30年，不后悔的30年。
满满的回忆，战绩，伤痕，和泪水。
种种的曲折与磨难，偏体鳞伤的心，也许不再轻易相信任何人。
昨日天真无邪的笑容，也许已经不复过往。

即使挑战还在继续，磨难还未完结，
小小的心脏还在跳跃，不认输。

31岁的人生，40岁的思路。
或许没有人会相信这样一个心境的我，
对于人生看得如此透彻。

不勉强，不强求。
对别人好的同时，更学会了善待自己。
31岁的人生继续前进着，不为谁停留。

2017的告白 。我想你

30岁的我，也渐渐明白。。。
有些人的身影，笑眼，每一个动作，
永远，永远都会在回忆里，身体里，和世界的每一个角落，存在着。

当一句问候也变得如此奢侈，一个关心也如此的多余，想念也许也是一种罪孽。

只能远远地关心，远远地祝福，远远地落泪。

当生命里也必须有另外一个人的出现，那个身影已经活在血液里，空气里，无时无刻，无可取代。

也许，只有和你一起，笑容也变得那么真切。
那个最真的我，那个依赖着你的我。
和你一起的夜晚，永远都让我那么的安心。
只要和你在一起，哪怕最艰难的困境，最险恶的道路，
因为有你，我从来都不害怕。

你喜欢的每一件事，我喜欢的每一样东西，
因为有你的分享，幸福就是这一回事吧！

还有好多好多的事，好多好多的话，好多好多的未来，
我们已经来不及完成。

在你转身的那一刻，属于你的所有回忆已经深深埋入我心里。

愿在同一片的星空下，你也能想起我。
而我也会一遍遍地为你祈祷，愿你一切安好。